Panic Attacks Support Group
A panic attack is a period of intense fear or discomfort, typically with an abrupt onset and usually lasting no more than thirty minutes. Symptoms include trembling, shortness of breath, heart palpitations, sweating, nausea, dizziness, hyperventilation, and sensations of choking or smothering. Panic attacks can be very sudden, appear to be unprovoked, and are often...
I'm so mad. Today my ex got made at me for making some decisions about the baby he doesn't like. I decided that I don't want him there during the delivery because he is not being supportive at all and I don't need the stress. I also decided since we are not married to name the baby after myself. I feel very strongly about this. I know he is mad but he was already mad anyways and he has not been understanding or supportive of me and the baby much. So he decides to say " I was going to propose to your crazy ass last month, but I'm glad I didn't." So of course it's a double low blow. Number 1 he is saying I WAS gonna ask you but decided you're not worth it, and number two he made fun of my disability and called me crazy. I can't even count how many times I've been called that for my disorder. It hurts every time even though I have tried not to let people get to me about it. It's upsetting to me. He wouldn't call a mentally handicapped person a retard. He wouldn't punish an epileptic for having a seizure, but I get punished for daring to have a disability he doesn't feel like understanding, I dared to be pregnant and be emotional, and I dared to put my foot down with him. So I guess I'm crazy for being a person and not his dummy. I feel like I just don't know what to say or do anymore. This is so far from what I wanted. I've been crying on and off since then. I just don't know what to do with myself anymore.
My relationship with my daughter's father (won't even call him an ex) was dwindling when I got pregnant. Although he was older than me, he didn't want to change his partying ways in order to be a dad. Due to the fighting etc, I knew it was not going to last, although I was going to try.
When I had my daughter, I named her, and was sure she had my last name. Best choice I ever made. Second best choice- breaking up with slacker. I didn't need two babies to raise! You think you can't do it on your own? You'll be surprised at how strong you are, and how much you can attain without someone dragging you down.
As far as him calling you crazy, that is the last thing you need in your life- more stress to cause more anxiety, along with being pregnant and taking care of your other children. You need a support system, not to be belittled. Get a therapist and psychiatrist and get yourself help- take care of you. You can't be a good mom unless you take care of yourself first. If you don't have insurance, they have that doctor on demand app, and they have therapists too.
I wish you the best of luck. Take care of you!