Panic Attacks Support Group

A panic attack is a period of intense fear or discomfort, typically with an abrupt onset and usually lasting no more than thirty minutes. Symptoms include trembling, shortness of breath, heart palpitations, sweating, nausea, dizziness, hyperventilation, and sensations of choking or smothering. Panic attacks can be very sudden, appear to be unprovoked, and are often...

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Anxiety is back

skjult
skjult

Hey guys! So my anxiety has been controlled for a few months but now it came back. 


I've been in therapy for 10 months and I've been taking 2 antidepressants a day and 1 Xanax at night.


Before, I used to focus on my past mistakes and I'd get really obsessed and anxious about them. I'd get so anxious and desperate that I could spend and entire day crying (non stop) because I couldn't see no way out. I couldn't function at all, I was totally unable to do anything alone and I even struggled when I tried to sleep (I could never get enough sleep time). 


I can say that antidepressants really helped me and have been holding anxiety down for the past months and it really feels good to have a normal life.


But, since yesterday, I've been feeling anxious again. Not so anxious as before but I'm afraid that I'll get into that state of despair again, that's why I'm here. 


As I said, I used to focus on past mistakes and that's what's happening right now. The "mistake" (which I don't know if it's a mistake or not yet) I made was yesterday at night, lets say that I stayed up until late (as I usually do) and saw something on the internet I probably shouldn't. I feel really mad at myself, I keep on yelling at myself, offending myself and even blaming myself on my own mind. Guess what? Now I'm obsessing about it. Whenever I feel more sensitive to get anxious, I feel like every small thing I do can turn into an huge problem and that's what's happening. Whenever I get anxious about something, I feel the urge to confess what I'm anxious about to someone (usually my mother). My mother always listens to me closely, she's really comprehensive and supportive and I'm thankful for that. But now, I'm feeling the urge to confess to her again and that's what makes me anxious because I don't know how she'll react. It seems like my mind is always searching for something to make me suffer. I'd stop this if I could but I can't. What if I get into that state of despair again? What if I get panic attacks again? I'm really scared, is this ocd? Pure O? Is there anyone out there who feels the same? I really need your help, I'm really scared. Thank you. 

ethequietCalm
ethequietCalm
Perhaps you should focus more on your actions that your thoughts. Whatever you saw on the Internet was on the Internet. As long as you're not engaging in dangerous activity and realize what you're seeing is something you may have particular feelings about then you know that doing it may be wrong or right depending on your morals. I would suggest doing something and just moving on and don't put so much thought into why, or what, or how, or the what if's. You generally know what's right and wrong and as long as you're not impeding on someone else's ability to choose you're gonna be ok.
Misscynt
Misscynt
Try going to counseling, their you can discuss what you are going through. I have recently picked up journaling... Write everything you want to confess to the journal.
Ashleystrange106
Ashleystrange106
Okay, calm down. You're alright, I promise. I know exactly how you feel. First, let me say "What if questions" are the worst thing you can do to yourself. Nothing good can EVER come from a "What if" question. Second, I would recommend talking to your doctor about upping the dose of your medication or maybe changing it. Third, Stop beating yourself up! There is nothing wrong with you. You create your reality. I've been doing this for 15 years, I know. It's really hard to control yourself. It's really hard trying to understand "Why me?" and the thought " Oh no! Not again!" comes with a quickened heartbeat and a tight chest. The human mind is an amazing and complex machine. It can create a lot of feelings that aren't real. Your fear is real because your brain is telling you it is. But, believe it or not, if you let it go to its full capacity you will not pass out and you will not die. You will not stop breathing unless you're intentionally holding your breath. It can't torment you if you don't care about it. In closing I'd like to wish you the best of luck, I honestly wish I could do more for you. I wouldn't wish that feeling on my worst enemy. I found that this doctor helped me more than I thought possible. His book also helps (It's on amazon and thriftbooks for cheaper than the site) https://www.anxietycoach.com/anxietydisorders.html