Hi there, just under two months ago I found this forum. At the time I was having the worst panic attacks of my life. For several weeks I lived in a constant state of panic. Nowhere was safe, especially not the inside of my own skin. Although I'm doing significantly better now, I can go to school without fear (something I had the most trouble with), I'm still afraid to face my fears. Until seven months ago I was fearless. I could go anywhere where with anyone and do pretty much anything. Run of the mill extroverted, confident, teenage party girl. I'm still not completey sure how it happened, but I developed a panic disorder paired with agoraphobia and a feeling of hopelessness that lead to depression. 

Essentially, despite knowing that if I do get anxious I can handle it, I find that I'm still having trouble going places. My initial thought is always 'what if I panic'. I want to be excited for my senior prom, and going to university next year, not terrified that I'll freak out. I want to be able to walk to the park down the street, or a friends house. I want to want to actually do something with my life instead of staying in bed and reading. I'm so sick of this bullshit. I know the best way to conqeur your fears is to face them (that's what I did with school and it worked) but I'm scared. Knowing that I'm trapped makes me feel hopeless. I'm so proud of myself for doing better. For going to my crushes house, to a party, and a small local resturaunt. I'm proud of myself for getting out of bed most mornings and making an effot. But it feels like it's not enough. 

How can I fix myself? How can I feel free again?

I will be extremely grateful for any advice <3