Who you really are does not want to do the cocaine. It is your brain that wants it. Your brain gets so much energy from it, doesn't it? The cocaine gives a great example how the brain and it's imagination has taken control of us human beings. How imagination takes control and pushes simple awareness out of it's rightful seat of power in a human. Someone once wrote about this, using a serpent, and the "fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil". That represents judgement and judgement is a huge part of imagination.

Here is how addictions work, all addictions. from cocaine, to the internet, to depression to shopping, to sex, to you name it.
Your brain using thoughts or feelings to create a desire in you. When you fulfill that desire, More energy is directed toward your brain. Your brain also releases chemicals in response to the fulfillment of that desire and these chemicals are received by certain receptors on the cells in your body. These receptors actually grow and develop according to the chemicals the brain releases. Now these receptor will also crave the chemicals your brain releases. And what does your brain get out of all this? It gets more energy. It strengthens it's position of authority. It also uses fear and the ego to do this as well. But this is all about an energy cycle. And cocaine, as I am sure you have sensed, supercharges that energy to the brain, doesn't it? I bet when you do a bump, you can actually feel that happening. Now you may ask, " But my brain, that's me, right?" Well watch as your brain operates without your say so. Watch as it actually forces you to do things against your will. Is your brain and all that thinking and imagination, really who you are? I think one of the most important things, if not The important thing for a person to do is to look and see the truth of this. That is the only real cure of all these addictions we suffer from. And almost every human suffers addictions, one way or the other. People who look down on drug addicts or alcoholics are kinda silly. They should look instead into what is really going on inside. All the answers and wisdom can be found by looking inside of oneself. It really is that simple.

Now i use the term brain above and it may not be the correct term. I could say mind, but maybe that is not right. I hope you can understand what I am saying past the definitions of the words. Words can be such a trap.

Not addicted to cocaine but have had problems with hydrocodone which is like heroin in pill form....has taught me kindness and compassion for my fellow man and i think there are support groups on this site for cocaine as well....do a search for support groups here on cocaine....i have kicked and withdrawals are a living hell....especially if you have to go cold turkey like i did to keep my job etc....i seem to be getting better now at last but the cravings never go away....hang in there man there are so many people who can identify with you on this. If you ever need to talk i am always available i have been there and really understand what you're going through. Mostly don't give up....if you fail don't beat yourself up ....just get back up and keep on trying. Sincere best wishes.

then choose to get on it again.. or choose to stay off it.. our stories won't change what you already want to do but are afraid of doing..

Ten years clean. Very hard and challenging to stop, but possible to do. for me I had access to it 24/7 for two years and realized either it would kill me or I would live the rest of my life in prison. I had to change my lifestyle and friends.

I have 21 months clean and sober, I have to go to AA and work the 12 steps, I lost my right to drink or do any drug,cause when I do it i lost the ability to control what I will do or how long I will do it for.I use to do coke and go on binders for 3 day's, crazy chit.All I know if you are unhappy doing it quit it.DRugs and alcohol tore my life to pieces.Now sobriety and working hard and trying to keep a balance in my life, is working for me.I like being clean and sober a hell of alot better.

I'm going on two weeks sober. I'm trying to iunderstand what the above guy meant with the truth and you're mind post. Just tell me it get so easier.
Every day is so hard to not just give in