This is something that I have been suffering from for a long time; it simply hasn’t been noticeable until recently. My mind has been torturing me for a time with thoughts of gouging out my eyes. I wasn’t sure what is was or how to properly describe it, so I have not spoken to anyone about it yet. I’ve become so terrified of my thoughts, though, that tonight will be the third over the span of less than a few months that I have had to sleep downstairs because I am terrified that I might enact the actions that I can’t stop thinking about, and nobody will be around to hear me cry or stop me if I do while in my bedroom. While I sent my therapist a non-specific email about my having more serious, urgent problems I needed to talk to her about ASAP (I was not specific because anyone could technically read the email, plus there are a few other problems), but she is on vacation nect week for her birthday; therefore, I won’t see her for another two weeks. I would talk to my school counselor, but in my district, if you suggest that you want to harm anyone on any level–genuine/dangerous or not–you get literally zero help or consolation before the school basically suspends you, rendering a visit useless for the time. What do I do until I can see my therapist again?