Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.

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Asics 05/04/2009

Recently I am feeling like my mind is being controlled (I do not hear voices or anything) but strong obsessions of failure as if the devil himiself is constantly whispering in my ear how worthless and pointless everything is in life. I look around and see vain attempts of people trying to fill their voids with success, relationships, etc. but ultimately end up unsatisfied and wanting. I cannot come to terms with this in my life and consequently feel like I am being cheated or have the attitude of why try because even the most successful go to the same place as those who aren't successful. If living with happy feelings is a goal, I just don't see the point in that either. I've no idea why I would want to be either happy or unhappy and I'm stuck in the motions of daily life trying to figure out some kind of reason for existing. My OCD latches onto that 100 fold and I end up more miserable and useless than before. I am in so much pain and misery.

deleted_user 05/04/2009

Im sorry you are dealing with this. It sounds like you are suffering from depression, are you seeing a therapist? The thing about OCD is that it really brings a person down. Many who have OCD have depression also and both combined are no good. You have come to the right place. I have been here not too long and everyone is soooo supportive and understanding. It feels so good to talk to people who actually understand what you are talking about and will not judge you.
Are you taking any medication? How are the people around you, are they supportive, understanding?
Just know that you are not alone, and the best thing you can do is talk talk talk. You dont have to go through this alone. We are here.

deleted_user 05/04/2009

Like carmenl said it sounds like you are depressed and OCD and depression often go together. I have struggled with the constant negatives and feeling like I am existing not living. Please keep posting this board is supportive and seeing a therpist/doctor might help as well.
Are you taking any medications. hang in there you are NOT alone.

deleted_user 05/04/2009

You are not alone, I also have OCD and suffer from depression on and off. When the two colide, it isn't a pretty picture. I think right now you need to see your therapist more if possible during this time, even talk to others here cause we understand. Maybe you need a change in medication or medication if you aren't on anything.

Hang in there.

deleted_user 05/05/2009

There's not too much more that I can add than what the others have said. Depression is tough to overcome. And Ocd takes some work to make things better. When you combine the two, oftenthe depression sucks the drive to overcome the OCD right out of you. Now is a good time to see your therapist.

Asics 05/05/2009

Thank you for all of your responses. My brain locks on negativity and I lock myself quite literally into my own prison. It's a strange thing that my mind can interpret everything in such black terms. I have tried counseling, meds, and a lot of different therapy and have found them very useful at points in my life. I talked with my psychiatrist last Friday and am going to up my dosage to 60mg of paxil to see if that has any effect. Thanks for your support.

deleted_user 05/05/2009

i agree. i am bipolar and ocd, which go hand in hand. i've been having bad, obsessive thoughts lately too.

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