Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.
I have struggled with a lot of ocd symptoms as a kid and continue to have severe ocd as an adult. I am not sure if anyone out there has struggled with changes in their obsession themes. I started having counting rituals and sex themes as a kid, have had classic intrusive thoughts that have pretty much dominated my life. I am becoming aware of how much its impacted every relationship I have had and every job. the longer I have lived with the illness.
lately I realize that my obsessions have changed to being completely fixated on people and relationships. particularly in the last few years. such as constant reassurance seeking asking what peoples opinions are about the morality of my relationship is.etc, listing flaws and having intrusive thoughts about if I like or hate them, or if they are good or bad. it leads me to feel anger towards people and pick apart flaws. it gets so bad that I isolate myself and cant be in a intimate relationship because of peoples flaws. I cant tell if they are real or imagined. I also obsess over random people who I see until I develop beliefs. But I am aware of this and cant control it. I feel like ocd is taking away my inner voice and ability to decipher what I really truly believe in my heart. Please someone help me by advice or telling me that they have experienced similar things. im sad and scared that this illness will isolate me from people forever.
lately I realize that my obsessions have changed to being completely fixated on people and relationships. particularly in the last few years. such as constant reassurance seeking asking what peoples opinions are about the morality of my relationship is.etc, listing flaws and having intrusive thoughts about if I like or hate them, or if they are good or bad. it leads me to feel anger towards people and pick apart flaws. it gets so bad that I isolate myself and cant be in a intimate relationship because of peoples flaws. I cant tell if they are real or imagined. I also obsess over random people who I see until I develop beliefs. But I am aware of this and cant control it. I feel like ocd is taking away my inner voice and ability to decipher what I really truly believe in my heart. Please someone help me by advice or telling me that they have experienced similar things. im sad and scared that this illness will isolate me from people forever.
Sorry to hear about what you are going through, it sounds like the obsessive thinking is quite consuming for you right now. Are you speaking to a healthcare professional at all? I find talking through with someone experienced with OCD really helps to distinguish between my own thoughts and the warped thoughts brought on by my condition. I know that my own intrusive thoughts altered my relationship with my dad for a long time, and I wish I had addressed it sooner so that I wouldn't have had to go through that time where I felt uncomfortable even hugging my dad. If you find yourself getting caught up in obsessive thinking about people is there anything that you find that distracts you or that you find calming? We all have flaws, make mistakes, do good and bad things, have ups and downs in relationships, and I think its pretty normal to think about these things, but if you are finding it hard to differentiate between what is real and not real and you are feeling isolated do you think you may be able to seek some support in challenging this thinking? I overanalyse these types of things all the time, I am currently seeing a clinical psychologist which is helping and I find staying busy and spending time with animals etc helps to distract my mind. And I have also worried about being isolated from people because of OCD but ive realised people are a lot more understanding and accepting than I thought. you can get though this, keep sharing. sending healing thoughts
Ophelia