Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.
Hi,I remember anxiously thinking worrying about something that haunted me throughout 2003/2007,now I'm pretty sure that I no what was running through my mind between them years!! But because of my current fear obbession 'have i killied someone in my past and forgotten' it seems to be connecting this current fear of mine to past memories where I remember having something on my mind and there for making me believe that really throughout those years I was actually anxiously thinking worrying about a murder I must of committed?? Is ocd distorting my original worries of something that was allready causing me at the time huge levels of antiexty into something even more sinister aka 'was I really worrying about a murder I committed!! I can visualise myslef thinking this in the past more, than what I think was originally was going through my mind!! When I go back to these memories I can see myslef worrying about what I done,its a strong impression i get,but in the present moment i cant put a face,name or a place this could of happened,but back then I did no!! And forgotten till now!! Please help!!!!
Please bear in mind that I'm no specialist on the issue, but I have been consulting a specialist for almost a year on the very topic of false memories.
This will sound harsh, but need to be accepted if you're to get better: the thoughts don't matter. They're not real. Your mind is making a suggestion, and your reaction is to grab hold of it. It's normal that you feel distressed, but in the end, realise that you're questioning yourself about whether or not you were questioning yourself.
It's hard to explain all of it in a short post, but you have to let go of your thoughts. Try looking up "willingness" and "OCD" together. You'll find very interesting texts that, I hope, will help you letting go. Don't get me wrong; it's not easy. But it becomes easier.
You're not alone. You will get better.