Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.
Hi, everyone. Around eight years ago I was diagnosed with OCD. My compulsions back then were getting very bad and my mother took me to the doctor to see why I was doing what I was doing. I was constantly shaking my head back and fourth and could not stop. I had constant headaches. I was also making certain nosies and could not stop.
Fast forward eight years or so, my compulsions that had decreased over time have suddenly came back with full force. Now I am opening my eyes wide and then clenching my eyes together constantly, clearing my throat constantly, and feel the need to always take short and sharp breaths. It is driving me crazy.
I want to visit my doctor about this, but I do not want to be put on medication. I recently took myself off of Geodon, which I was on for six years or so. I stopped cold turkey and have been off since a little before Thanksgiving of 2018. All withdrawal symptoms are gone. I did not need it for the reasons prescribed and want to live my life medication free. I absolutely hate the side effects of medication.
On Monday I start the new semester at college, and I have not been sleeping because my compulsions drive me crazy all night long. I am not getting good rest and have big bags under my eyes.
Does anyone have any advice on what I should do? If my doctor recommends some type of medication, should I take it even if I do not want to? How do you deal with your compulsions? I just want to rest.
Thank you in advance.
My dad was upset at this. They thought I was eating too much sugar, they restricted my sugar intake.
Personally, I was just doing it.... I could not help myself. Maybe I had too much energy? Not sure. Fast forward to 2019. I am 46 years old. I don't do things in public....I do tense my legs when sleeping. I have recurring thoughts and have started making really low and quiet grunting noises. Not sure why.
Exercise helped me a bit, I tend to like to be tired out. The point of my post is, I had exactly this sort of behavior when I was in Junior High.
Even a few of the teachers were upset that I made noises in class. They thought I was being rude. One teacher put a note on my desk asking me to please stop making noises. It was embarrassing.
I think teachers know more about these things now a days then in the 1970s.
I am also on Geodon, and also Prozac. I was originally diagnosed with Bi-Polar 1 now I am diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. Hmm. I take Geodon, and have vivid dreams because of it. Kinda odd, the only side effect that I know of from Geodon.
I do tend to jump to the wrong conclusions at times, mainly in work and social settings.
Good luck, I hope you find an answer.