I find that my OCD moves in cycles (this is pretty typical apparently) where sometimes I have obsessions that pop in and out of mental dominance at random. It's super annoying, but I've just come to expect it. Hope this helps!

I was going to post a new discussion about this actually, until I saw this..
I feel your pain! I for some reason obsess over my boyfriend's ex girlfriend that he was with before me for 3 years and me constantly having to prove in my mind that I'm better than her. Meanwhile they broke up almost 2 years ago and I have never had any drama with her at all!
There's no reason for me to feel this way because I have a good man and we have a healthy relationship, but I don't know how to stop looking at her social media and looking at pictures of her and compare myself. I actually search her name!
I also know what kind of car she drives and her license plate number because my bf told me what it was when I actually have seen her in passing and I guess I was curious.
Now that I know all that every time I see a white sonata I look at the plate and think its her. EVERYWHERE I go. And my stomach turns.
What is this?!
Its crazy because i am 4 years older than her and I do not think this is adult like behavior! I am 25 and this is the kind of shit I do? The kind of shit I obsess over ? I am on zoloft and neurontin for my bipolar and pmdd and I hope my irrational thoughts simmer down soon.
I think most of it stems from me not being happy with myself. I have been trying extremely hard to get back into the gym and live a fit and healthy lifestyle and when I fail I get into these ruts where I look her up and think, "how does my bf love me when he was with someone with a better body".
It's crazy irrational and I wanna stop digging up the past. What is wrong with me?

I have had pass thoughts come in. you have to know what they are and redirect them to the present time.

Some thoughts never goes away when I think about the past. I found that childhood thoughts and experiences can also have a big effect on our ocd today. It is a tough journey, but sometimes it's vital to go there to heal properly. J

I'm new to my OCD being this forward too and have had this happen in the past few days. Hve you spoken with anyone who was close to you at that time about these memories? I know it doesn't always help, but I found actually speaking these memories I had never said out loud to somebody helped, especially when they could relate :)

I notice I do this when I connect with a old past memory that hurt me, I connect with it like a awakening, like I put 2 an 2 toghether and think about that over an over in my mind. Then I have then need to talk tothat person that hurt me but dont so I keep thinking about it. I talk to my son, who is good with me an other people. He says it good to just talk about the the thought out loud, then if you got to tell the person do it. You dont know if ur thought on how you been obessing about it is gonna feel cause you have ur feelings and they have thiers. U got to get the thought somehow to others like we do here. Its ok. Its ok to be here an talk about the thought ur obsessing with. Mine is ok, I tell you. When I was young an I would get my period , I would have problems w
ith them. I would getbig clots an be in terrible cramping an bleed alot. I was also sexually active. Then I would skip a mounth. I would tell my mom I didnt get my period an was having sex c with my boy friend. She would take me to this gyn gut, he would schedule me for a dand c the next day. I had this happen to me about 3 or 4 times while I was a teen. I felt like she was taking me to the doctore to get a abortion, which I was agianst. I feel hurt she did this to me but never told her I been thinking about this over and over .I still hant told her owe. It made me feel when she would do this. I dont want to bring it up an hurt her feelins, but will it hurt her? I dont know her feelings. I guess what I am rambling on about is you got to get the thought out. Thats whatI do here. I cant keep a written journal. So , just try an post it here where you think it belongs in that group. People here will try to help. It will be ok.

Yes. I think the past causes pain in the mind to the point that you can not see what is in front of you. I see this quite often with another person who has it, and the worse thing about it is that it's hard to communicate with the person who is suffering with it. They won't listen to you and they may say things to hurt your feelings

It's just nasty!!!!!!

Your definitly not alone in this . I also deal with having trouble with past thought and finding it hard to let go. I agree with wep about how the past can sometimes cause pain so deeply in the mind that it's hard to see what's in front of you and see that the past is over and all we should and have to focus on is now. So just know your not alone.