Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.
Hi,
I am new on here and only wish I had found a site like this, years ago. I constantly am doing math in my head or spelling. I can be in a conversation with someone and hear a word and while I am listening to the other person, I am seeing how many words I can make out of the word that has taken over my thoughts. Believe it or now, I DON'T lose out on the conversation and can answer and keep up with it. When doing numbers, it is totally different. I went to a Bell Ringing, Christmas Program and in the front, by the altar, there was a huge organ with slews of pipes in different sizes. I had to count every one of the same size, then I had to take the smallest one and see how many times it would go in to the others and so on. I then had to count how many people were in the rows of the Church and how many rows there were, then multiply them to see how many people were in there and then I was off to the tiles in the floor. Before I knew it, the program was over and I had missed the whole thing.
I was sexually/physically and verbally abused by my father from the time I was two until I was thirteen. I would disassociate which is another one of my problems and I am wondering if all of the OCD was another means of escape. I know that I do more of it when I am highly stressed, which I am right now. Does it ever go away?? I have been in therapy for most of my life, probably 2/3 of it and it seems to get better for a while and when I least expect it, it is back like gang busters. I just don't know what to do with it, any more. Any suggestions?
I am new on here and only wish I had found a site like this, years ago. I constantly am doing math in my head or spelling. I can be in a conversation with someone and hear a word and while I am listening to the other person, I am seeing how many words I can make out of the word that has taken over my thoughts. Believe it or now, I DON'T lose out on the conversation and can answer and keep up with it. When doing numbers, it is totally different. I went to a Bell Ringing, Christmas Program and in the front, by the altar, there was a huge organ with slews of pipes in different sizes. I had to count every one of the same size, then I had to take the smallest one and see how many times it would go in to the others and so on. I then had to count how many people were in the rows of the Church and how many rows there were, then multiply them to see how many people were in there and then I was off to the tiles in the floor. Before I knew it, the program was over and I had missed the whole thing.
I was sexually/physically and verbally abused by my father from the time I was two until I was thirteen. I would disassociate which is another one of my problems and I am wondering if all of the OCD was another means of escape. I know that I do more of it when I am highly stressed, which I am right now. Does it ever go away?? I have been in therapy for most of my life, probably 2/3 of it and it seems to get better for a while and when I least expect it, it is back like gang busters. I just don't know what to do with it, any more. Any suggestions?
Welcome here.
I don't see OCD as an escape, because I can't escape it anymore. It's part of me. But how I react to it determine my state of health. A more relaxed approach brings a better level of acceptance of OCD and it's symptoms.
I tried for a long time to fight this, but it only escalates into something real bad. Acceptance is number one and the next step is control. We can control OCD to live a better and happy life. We're all on a journey with the OCD and our stop signs and triggers are different, but it's the same path. How we react to what OCD throws at us determine our health. We have to live through the OCD to discover the real me. J