I'm not sure where I should begin...well for starters, I have what's commonly known as pure O (Obsessional OCD). This means that most of my obsessions and compulsions are all in my mind. I have a lot of intrusive taboo thoughts, but I do have other symptoms such as, hand washing, fear of getting or spreading an illness, checking, some number rituals, irrational fears with colors and clothing items. I was diagnosed in 2009 with Pure O and GAD (generalized anxiety disorder). It was one of the worst experiences of my life. I had an "OCD episode" when I was 12 as well, and didn't have another one until 7 years later. unfortunately I went undiagnosed for about 15 years. In the year of 2009, I was having vivid intrusive thoughts and urges. My thoughts were consisting of hurting my loved ones and myself, but also branched out to having the thoughts about anyone I saw. I had my self convinced I was insane, and should be put away. My therapist refused to put me in a mental institution because he said I was not going to hurt anyone and they would just over medicate me. I was having on and off panic attacks daily until I was put on the right medication. I was put on luvox and klonopin. I was only on them for about a year or 2. My OCD does still act up sometimes and it is rough. I'm hoping that this site will offer some support and some insite as well.
I am always here for any of my fellow OCD sufferers.