Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.
My OCD is spiking today, very badly. Thanksgiving is always stressful for me, well Holidays in general actually. Todays would be especially stressful because breaking our usual tradition of having it at our house, we instead traveled to my grandmothers. First, my OCD was forcing me to focus on my POCD but now, as I'm making plans to see my best friend tomorrow my OCD is going back to my violence obsession saying that because I'm jealous of her, I'll snap and do something. Its true, I do feel envious of her at times because everything comes so naturally to her and I hate that I feel that way because I adore her and love her. And I hate that my OCD is feeding off of that. I don't want to be jealous and I don't want to be jealous.
The fact that you recognize you're jealous is huge! Way to go! I think that's the first step. Just any time you see that appearing, realize it's there, acknowledge it, and try not to fuel it. I think jealousy is a normal human emotion, but when we have OCD it sticks in our minds and we make it bigger than it is. Call it as an OCD thought and try not to beat yourself up for having it. Hope it goes well!