Xanax has physical withdrawal issues when not taken daily on a regular schedule. As it peaks and valleys in your blood stream, taking it occasionally or as needed" makes you feel worse over all.

You aren't a drug addict. You do need to discuss with an actual psychiatrist if you are on a good treatment regimen. A general practitioner just doesn't know enough to prescribe correctly.

Don't feel guilty. You're doing what you need to to take care of yourself. Your boyfriend is misguided. If you had diabetes would he object to you taking insulin? How about heart disease? Would he have a problem with nitroglycerin? There is nothing wrong with taking Lexapro for your serious neurological disorder. And there's nothing wrong with Xanax or Ambien either. I take both, as needed, and they are perfectly safe and can be a lifesaver. You're not a drug addict. You are doing the right thing by treating your condition.

I totally agree with Aunt30030, you must not feel guilty for taking medication. Your boyfriend needs to understand that medicine taken correctly can be very helpful and assists in being able to function on a daily basis. I know a lot of people are against medication, but for me it was a life saver regarding my sanity and I know for a fact I'm a better person and my family benefits greatly from me being able to function normally everyday, which I wouldn't be able to without the meds. You need to do whatever is right for you! If you feel better on medication and function well with every day life, then surely that benefits your boyfriend. Maybe take your boyfriend along to a doctors appointment so that the doctor can explain exactly how the medication works for you, maybe that will help him to understand why you take it