i do the same thing! &i know it sounds weird and everything. but it happens to me too...
&i never think anything sexual, or get turned on, but i look alot. i dont know why but yeah.
just wanted to let you know you're not alone(:

This has also happened to me.It started my first ocd obsession. I saw a picture of this little girl in a very tight bathing suit and i found myself looking, when i realized what i was doing i felt sick to my stomach. I thought i'm a pervert after this i went through a meltdown i wouldn't be around my little girl naked, i thought i was a sicko child molester in the making. Sorry for rambling , to make short i got help the thoughts went away. I now know I am not a pervert it was just this stupid chemical inbalance in our brains . Try not to stress i know its hard not to, but in my opinion the stressing makes the thoughts run rampid just tell yourself you know your not like this it's your ocd. Just the fact that it freaks you out shows you your not like this. I hope you feel better soon hun. Write if you ever need to talk.

OCD can be anything, so do not feel quilty.

Guilt is the number one facter in OCD, we try to be good and then we focus on something we feel bad and want to confess to our family or husband or boyfriend or anyone who would listen.

You do not need to confess to anyone because what we have is OCD illness, we are not responsible for the thoughts, only if you act upon those thoughts and it causes pain to another.

One thing that is good to try and may help is to write the thought down and place it in a box and dont open that box. Do this for a week and keep placing in that box. but never look in that box. Then shredd all of it each week or each month or each year. What ever works for you. Let go of it and you practice letting go and you will see it was not as bad as you thought.

I also journaled for years and just put it away. I have a stack of them. I let it go. Years passed and I did read my journals and saw that it was not as bad as I thought.

We are going to have good and bad thoughts. It is not your fault or anyones fault its just a thought. This is part of our life. Everyone has their own coping skills. For me I just write and shredd and I leave it alone. We are human, we are not perfect ( I noticed those who try to be too perfect have OCD). Yesterday is gone and we just have today and tomorrow will never come.

You are not bad or evil and you have nothing to be ashamed of. You dont need to tell your boyfriend anything hun. Always remember you can write it here on DS and let go of it.

It takes practice but it CAN BE DONE.

I pray for you and I know GOD knows you have a illness, so please dont worry hun. We have all did things we felt quilty of in our minds.

Its just a thought hun.

Practice letting go

It works I know it does because I can do this.

On very stressful days OCD is worse , so when I feel them coming on I try to let go.

Lord Bless Thee

First, don't confess. Nothing happened that wasn't absolutely normal. If you confess, you're doing a compulsion and it will just grow. Besides, people who don't have OCD don't get it. Anyway, would you expect yourself not to look if some guy flashed you? Basically, you were email flashed. It's really normal to look. Anybody would. You're not a perv.

I have to agree with clutter. It is really a normal response to the the situation. If anything I'd be more worried about the person who sent the email in the first place. If you feel like you have to tell your boyfriend, I'd be very careful how you express it. Looking at photos is perfectly normal and harmless. You are definately not a pervert. Good luck whatever you decide to do.

Thank you all for writing back...It's really good hearing that other people have had these same / similiar feelings or experiences. Those are some great ideas on letting things go, I really do need to work on that. But thanks so much, it's so nice knowing that i'm not alone :)