I'm having a terrible time with my OCD lately -- I confess things every day to my boyfriend, & feel terrible about myself. I feel like if I have any weird thoughts, it means i'm a weird person, or something's wrong with me.

When I was younger, before I fell asleep, for some reason I would imagine that someone was going to attack me, and whoever it was that I liked at the time would save me. But then it turned into a rape thing, even though it never got to that point because I would be saved first. I guess it's the 'damsel in distress' thing...

Well anyway, I was recently laying in bed, and I was kind of imagining a story where I was running away, and in this, some guy tried to rape me. I think I fell asleep at one point, because I don't remember thinking of any details, but woke up and actually felt turned on. This makes me feel horrible, I think that rape is a terrible thing, and it's something that isn't some sort of fantasy for me...So I don't know why this happened, or why I would have thought of it to begin with. I feel like I need to confess this to my boyfriend. I feel the need to confess every little thing to him, and I always think that he's going to think i'm weird or perverted or not love me, but this is something that I feel so ashamed of and terrible about - why I would even think of that happening. I just don't know what to do...I know i'm not a pervert, but this weird thought still makes me feel terrible.

Is there something wrong with me or disturbed? Is this something that is so abnormal I should confess it?