Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.

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MorningSadness00 03/18/2011

I had my son about 15 months ago, and i developed postpartum depression. I was on my parenting board tonight and i came across Postpartum PSYCHOSIS. Now i am in a panic mood i am so terrified of hurting my 15 month old now. I do not want to hurt my child, i love him with all of my heart, and i know the thoughts that i have towards him are bizarre! I know Postpartum Psychosis is very rare and effects one woman in every 1000 births, but then i researched and googled can Postpartum depression turn into postpartum psychosis. It said YES in RARE cases.... That right there almost through me into a straight panic attack! I DO NOT have the desire to hurt my little boy, I love him so much. I really do, and it kills me that i had to read it can turn into postpartum psychosis....I DO NOT want to hurt him... I am so afraid of developing this. I want to take care of my child, i am sick of avoiding him because i am very afraid i am going to snap and hurt him!!! HE is my CHILD. why would i want to hurt my child who i love so much, who is the most important thing to me...This is breaking my heart, i'm crying as i am typing this...Will i be okay? Am i going to hurt my child? What if i have a psychotic episode and accidentally hurt/kill him? I do not want any of that to happen to my son. I DO NOT want to hurt him... God somebody help me out of this viscous cycle!!!! :'(

I just need to know, will i be okay?

deleted_user 03/18/2011

hi , i really feel for you ,because i used to feel the same ,but know this because you feel bad about this thought, you will never do it ,because you still have emotions ,this shows that you sensitive and caring. you are not alone this i have two beautifuls girls and when i first had these thoughts i thought i will also snap ,but remember a thought is a thought not reality ,don't try to supress the thought rather say i'm having a bad thought it will go away

i promise you ,you will never never hurt your baby its just your mind playing up i am speaking from experience

god bless and have strenght

beatingOCD 03/18/2011

People that have psychotic breaks even postpartum psychotic breaks dont worry about going crazy!! Look at this as a good time to practice accepting your thoughts and feelings and working around them...I know it feels real and it is a vicious cycle I have been there..I read an article once on this very same thing and it freaked me out just like you!! and I mean really freaked me out!! this OCD thing is a huge burden and is very hard to manage at times but, YOU ARE OK!!! Its just FEAR creating your thoughts and feelings NOT desire or pychosis. that is a huge difference! YOU are OK!!!!

deleted_user 03/19/2011

Try to let what everyone has said sink in. Do not give in to the fear by avoiding it. When we avoid a fear, we give it power. This is just another one of those things when you got to say what the hell and go on. Its just thoughts of concern, not thoughts of fantasy. You will never, ever hurt your child, and that is that.
I will continue to pray for your situation. You are not alone.

deleted_user 03/19/2011

by hearing that you abhor these thoughts is proof that you won't do it. I had those same strange thoughts. They are disturbing. But again, you hate it, so you won't do it. believe us... It would be scarier if you thought the idea was good!

bethmach 03/19/2011

Morning sadness,
I have seen you on this site for a while now with what appears to be little relief. You do not meet the criteria for post-partum psychosis and most likely never will. You are an OCD mom. I think we should have our own site we are so prevalent! The thing is, reassurances from those who mean well, including myself will never help you. Have you looked into and are you capable (insurance-wise) of getting into CBT?

deleted_user 03/20/2011

OCD in general. This is quite common for sufferers. Now just moms. I used to imagine molesting my girls when changing their diapers. I wish someone had told me it most likely won't happen for tje very reason that it bothered me. Just my two cents.

deleted_user 06/16/2011

I was hospitlized after a miscarriage in 2005 I was afraid I was gonna hurt someone , i wasn't , it was OCD postpartum stuff it was just extreamly intense. I get OCD worse with my periods too. The postpartum stuff is the worst. your safe it will get better. you have to learn to relax and accept the fact everyone has intrusive thoughts, people with OCD get anxiety over theirs. we are normal except for the part where we freak out about what we are thinking. that is easier said that done.

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