I know what your talking about, I have done it but at the time it only seemed to make it worse. I just read an incredible article by Dr. Steven Phillipson about doing exactly what your talking about, you may want to read it :) Just google ocdonline he has a video and articles about his work and findings, pretty cool.

I should have not have watched that stuff

Now my mind is going crazy on me and I feel like I'm going go to go crazy!!! I had this intrusive thought about wondering what it would feel like to kill someone. And I almost had a panic attack. My body got hot and I broke out into a sweat. Am I crazy? am I loosing my mind? Am I really a killer? I do Not want to kill/hurt anyone. :( I really do Not want to know what it feels like. That thought disgusts me!!!! Is this my OCD or am I really a killer? I'm so scared please help!!!!! Am I crazy???? Has this ever happened to anyone else? Anyone else have a thought about wondering what it would feel like? Ive never hurt a soul, no one! Especially not any of my pets :(. Help!!

Anyone!!!

Hey- You are perfectly a good person. After watching that show you have secretly been waiting on something bad to happen. So your ocd used this against you!! You are fine! You are a great person! I know its overwhelming, IVe been their. You will get through this! I suggest not watching that stuff for awhile. When you freak out your giving your ocd that much more power against you. Message me if u need to talk and I will get back with you as soon as possible!

I think the main point in the article is that your mind will produce random and meaningless thoughts or impulses and that if you react to it personally you give it way more attention than it deserves. The fact that the thought of killing someone bothers you means you wouldn't want to do it. Everyone has crazy weird thoughts; its just part of being human. What you DO in life is what matters. Im positive I am totally capable of killing someone but I also know I never would unless it was in defense of myself or loved ones. Dont get caught up in the idea that good people dont have thoughts like that because everyone does, its human nature.

I am sorry by the way the article upset you so much :( That was totally not my intent in sharing it. I hope you feel better today.

Oh you poor thing!!!!!!!! I can tell you that your post sounds exactly like me when my OCD creeps up. and some of these thoughts are always in the back of my head. I hope you are feeling much better. I am here if you want to talk.

TLD24, the article didnt upset me, the shows i watched did and now its all i can think about, and i fear that i will snap and start hurting/killing people and that scares me.

Ok :) Just remember psyco killers dont sit around feeling bad about doing it or even questioning if they could do it.. There is nothing in you but you, your the driver, period. I had the same fear for a while when I was a kid, I know its an terrible and scary feeling.

Been there done that! LOL! I believe it is a matter of checking or a want to prove to ourselves that it doesnt bother us. I learned that I dont have to watch or enjoy these types of shows. Isnt there enough death in the world that television networks have to air it for our entertainment? Anyway, I truly believe that there is a root cause to everyones OCD. Whether it be, emotional abuse, physical abuse, or just a lack of reinforced love; there is a cause. In my case I have learned that the lack of love, shame and guilt have played major factors in my OCD. I am currently reading a book called, "Shame Off You." Its by Allen Wright. It explains alot about the emotiional baggage we carry with us and how it can cause major problems with our way of thinking. Anyway, I will be praying for you.
God Bless