Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.
Hello, new here. I am not totally sure where to start. I do believe after reading alot of these posts that I have OCD. I never really thought I did until now. Ok, where to start. I have 4 kids, 2 grown and 2 still at home. First off, I do believe I am going through menopause, having some physical issues with that. But, that is a totally different subject, lol. I have had obsessvie thoughts before, but like I said, I would have never thought it was OCD. Lately, like alot of the posters on here, I have had very disturbing thoughts of doing something bad to my kids, and that is not like me at all! I feel as if I am a monster or something! And yes, the thoughts do scare me to death! I cry everyday, and am very anxious. I can't tell my husband because he would think I was absolutely nuts!! I have told a friend of mine about it though, because she is very understanding. I feel for anyone going through this. I just feel like I can't sit down very long either without getting up to do things in the house. I just basically feel like I am loosing my ever loving mind!!! Also, I don't have insurance right now, so I can't talk to someone about this. I have been taking St John's Wort, but only for a couple of weeks, so I guess I can't expect miracles from that yet! Please, please, I need help here! Sometimes I feel like I wanna just pack up and leave rather than deal with these awful thoughts!!
What you mention sounds very common for those with OCD, not that it makes it fun to think those things by any means! It can definitely be disturbing to have those thoughts about our loved ones! OCD preys on our deepest fears and insecurities - the fact that you're obsessing about hurting your family probably just shows how much you'd never want to do that.
Funds are scarce with us too, so I've never sought treatment for my OCD (although I might soon). I found a lot of good books at the library on the topic that even gave you exercises to complete to treat your OCD. The biggest help for me is just to acknowledge that I've had those thoughts, not feel guilty about them, and then just move on (it kind of takes the wind out their sails so to speak). I had a major flare up a couple of weeks ago and I ran across this website with suggestions - it said to assign certain times throughout the day to obsess over things. So when my intrusive thoughts came up, I'd say "I'll think about that at 8:15" or whenever. Doing that did help. OCD is quite the crafty ailment and it always takes new forms, but applying a variety of methods can lessen its affects. Good luck to you!
I actually do have a doc appt for Tuesday, and I will tell him how anxious I have been feeling. Even though he isn't a therapist, maybe, just maybe, he could give me something for it. I just want to be normal again!
I fully understand how hard you have been through. You have to confess it to your husband. It will lessen the burden. let the doctor explain it to him so that he will understand. This is highly treatable most specially with the help of the family.