I'm 31 and ready to lose 138 lbs. I've talked to a nutritionist about a year ago but I'm thinking I'll need a refresher chat. My main problem is apathy. I've never had a very poor body image. I've always mostly been fine about the way I look or feel (5'7"  338lbs, just 20lbs below my biggest). But my joints take notice and since having kids and hitting 30 I'm feeling this is ridiculous. I can't keep up with my 3 year old. My kids deserve a parent that can stay active with them for more than 10-15 minutes at a time.

 I have been feeling some anger at myself that, I feel, is stunting my progress. I didn't own a scale after my first kid and only found out my weight loss progress in my postpartum check ups. When those stopped I somehow completely didn't notice that I was only 30lbs away from goal. And I gave into apathy. Now here I am. Any suggestions on what to tell myself when I stop caring? I'm a big fan of hard truths and blunt commentary. My biggest concern is taking weight off my poor bones, I've been big my whole life and know I'm never going to have a "hot body " but I've never cared to in the first place.