Hi, I am not new to the group, but don't really post much. A lot has happened in my life over the past 3 years, and I am really down and out. I moved to Florida from Ohio, away from all of my family, I lost my 23 year old son to a drug overdose, my daughter is fighting that same battle. Then I lost both of my dogs 3 months later. I have been in a severe depression ever since. No doubt I have been on this weight and diet roller coaster for 20 years, but this is the worst of it. I am 47, and I weigh 280, and this is the highest weight I have ever been at. Before my son died, I had lost 45lbs and was at 230, which was making me feel great physically and mentally, and I'm sure most of you can relate to how I feel now. I feel lazy, beat down, sluggish, and have no motivation to do anything about it. It's not only the amount of weight, but my lab numbers are getting crazy. My cholesterol is 268, not to mention I am now pre-diabetic, and have very bad liver numbers. All of this you think would make me get up off my butt, but it's not. What is wrong with me? I don't want to die because of this.
Another issue is that I am here alone. My husband works on the road, and is only here every few months for a few days. I am no longer working because major health issues. The only people I had to talk to were the people at work. I don't have any friends that I've made here except for one, but she is so busy with her own life, and her grandkids that she really can't fit in time for me. My life was always about work, work, work. My job was sitting in front of a computer 8 hours a day, and sometimes even 12-14 hours a day. I am paying the price for that now. I have no one to work out with, or to push me to get up and go. I've joined DailyBurn which I haven't used yet, I have an exercise bike I don't use, and the gym membership got paid monthly for a full year, but never got used. I have severe psoriatic arthritis, and plantar fasciitis, which makes it difficult to do anything. I am truly stuck and need some direction.
I have`nt been here online in a while because i was in so much pain, i could`nt think straight. I really enjoy talking to all of you. I can see that i`m not alone at all, some others are worse off then i, and i feel for all of you. I have so many issues. Like osteoarthritis, fibromyalgia and nerve damage sometimes i cannot tell which is the most painful because i stay in pain 247 all day long....
It's a beautiful warm sunny day today, so looking forwards to my walk to work.Ate well yesterday and walked to work so I back in the swing.The store will be busy today so I will be too. tomorrow Good Friday I have to work from Noon till five.Then I am off work for ten days. I have the out laws coming on Saturday so will be active running around after them.I am happy today.