Started pool therapy today! Went yesterday for first time but didn't get to get into the pool! Was fantastic!!! I loved it!!! Was sooo wonderful & relaxing!!!

The past two days have been very good & very very relaxing!!! And, the weather has been great!!! AB days!!! Very windy though! But I opened the windows & let the wind blow through the house! It was great! Sooo very relaxing!!! Haven't been this relaxed in a life-time!!!

Had that respirtory, as you all may or may not remember!? And, then all hell broke lose with loss of dog, tooth, etc... & my infection went to hell in a hand basket! I have been terrible ill!!! So yesterday the weather was good & I went to see a really nice doc at one of the Minute Clinics! That took forever! But went well! Then went by pharmacy! Left scripts but didn't have the money to get them! Only had co-pay for one!

Gave them to them, told them to fill two--while I tried to figure out how the hell I was going to get the one!? Was looking for somebody to ask, but didn't see anybody that looked safe to ask. So sit & prayed real hard about it while my scripts were being filled & w/o any warning or talk or anything a woman in line turned to go & just came up to me & gave me a bill & told me to go up there & get all my scripts now! I said what? And, she said, GO UP THERE & TELL THEM TO GIVE YOU ALL OF YOUR SCRIPTS NOW!!! YOU CAN GET THEM ALL NOW! SO HERE! GO DO IT!

GREAT GREAT STORY!!! IT'S IN MY PUBLIC JOURNAL! A MUST READ!!! :) AND, WHEN I GOT HOME FROM THE PHARMACY I HAD AN EMAIL FROM MY BEST FRIEND! WE'RE GOOD!!! :) SHE WASN'T OVER ME!!! IT WASN'T WHAT I THOUGHT!!! SHE WAS HAVING A "PERFECT STORM" OF TERRIBLE EVENTS HERSELF!!! AND, HAD AN UNBELIEVABLE WEEK FROM HELL HERSELF! So that's why I didn't hear from her during this crisis!

I just thought that she had had & done all she could!? Since I was in such huge crisis & had not heard from her for that long! But in reality she was having a terrible time of it herself!!! And, if I had only known I could have tried to put my stupid shit aside & have tried to be there for her!!!

I feel really bad about that! Feel kind of stupid & selfish right now!? But I'm human! And, we just both happened to have life shit all over both of us at the same time! It's never shit on us both this bad at the same time!!! But this time it did! Well! There's a first for everything!!! And, I learned a lot through this terrible time!!!

About my friend, ME, & about many of you guys here! So as painful as it was, it as probably necessary I guess!?

So, in the end, hanging on a little longer turned out to be a good thing I guess!?

Anyway! I have the whole amazing story in my journal!!! If you want the whole amazing story it's there!

I'm tired!!! Have been all day! But less than yesterday! Infection is slowly starting to get better I think! Things being a LOT better, with me getting out the past two days in the sun & running around & then getting to a doctor & getting some meds, & getting my other meds filled, & then having my friend still & knowing that we are good, but just both having a terrible time of it is really helping the infection! And, I got some decent sleep last night! Had 2 very relaxing days!!! And, just having all of the stress go away & calm down dramically has made a huge difference in how I am feeling physically!

Pain has been a lot better! And, infection is getting better!!! Well! I've had a long busy day, so I'm going to say good night for now! But just wanted to give you guys a quick update on recent events & on my suicidal mood & let you guys know that I am okay right now!!! And, that that has subsided for now!

LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!! AND, AGAIN!!! THANK YOU GUYS SOOOO MUCH!!!!! I REALIZED JUST HOW GOOD OF FRIENDS THAT I DO HAVE HERE! LEARNED A LOT ABOUT YOU GUYS, MY FRIEND, OTHERS, & ME!!!

SO THANKS GUYS!!! GOODNIGHT!