Things are crazy as ever!!! Crazy as hell here! I had 3 of my boy Britt's decide that they no longer wanted to live with my male Britt that is my service dog! So they decided to kill him! Twice! Almost did! I had 3 of them on him the first time! And, 2 the second time! Mostly one! I got hurt too, both times! And, Chaser got hurt really badly, & was almost permantly paralyzed the 1st time in his hind legs & spine! It took me an hour to get them off! And, every time I'd get one off, it would find a way to get back to us & to get back into the fight! Over & over & over again! Chief & River were the two biggies that time! Then Paint joined in! Then Thunder was trying to jump in, but he was easy to get & get under control!

Pack mentality you know!? It was horrible for me!!! I had been up to the my Reumo doc an hour up the road & had been up there all day traveling around, seeing the doc, getting pocked & proded, & then an hour back! When I came in I started to release some of them from their crates to go out to potty! LUCKILY I HAD ONLY RELEASED A FEW OF THE CRATES! If I had released all of them, Chaser would have been killed for sure!!! And, some others with him, because THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN IT!!! I WOULD HAVE EITHER KILLED THEM MYSELF--FOR DOING IT, OR WOULD HAVE HAULED A LOAD OF THEM TO THE SHELTER & WOULD HAVE JUST BEEN DONE WITH THEM/IT!

Well! His spine was injured & he couldn't stand up on his hind legs, for a day, because one time of Chief coming back in, he grabbed Chaser by the spine, rt over his back legs & then shuck him back & forth! It started outside, then graduated to inside the house, between the end of my bed, the tv/stand, & my closet! Then, went from there to the bathroom! HOW I EVER GOT ANY OF THEM OFF I WILL NEVER EVER KNOW??? SHEER DETERMINATION!!!

I was already totally shot when I started that fight! And, was sooo stressed out by it, that I deteriated really super fast! I had some sort of stroke type event, but had to ignore it & just keep going! I HAD TO SAVE CHASER & GET THOSE OTHER BOYS UP & UNDER CONTROL! And, still release the others just a few minutes to use the damned bathroom!

So that went on an hour! With me shaking all to pieces, yelling, screaming, & crying my eyes out & yelling over over in the house, OMG!!!! THEIR KILLING MY PRECIOUS CHASER!!! THEIR KILLING MY PRECIOUS CHASER!!!! ETC... ETC.. PLEASE GOD MAKE THEM STOP!!!! PLEASE HELP ME GET THEM OFF & UNDER CONTROL!!! PLEASE GOD DON'T LET THEM KILL MY CHASER!? PLEASE!? PLEASE!? PLEASE!? I JUST KEPT YELLING THIS OVER & OVER & OVER, IN NOTHING BUT TEARS IN MY HOME! I had a stupid neighbor in front of me that heard all of this, but stood by at him home complaining about me & DID NOTHING!!! PISSED ME OFF WHEN I FOUND OUT!!! DO SOMETHING STUPID! DO SOMETHING!?

So... Then, I had my entire rt arm sprained really badly, my rt hand totally swollen & black, & thought that it was broken!? On top of that I had some kind of stroke type event & had also over heated, etc... while this was going on--due to the trauma & stress of the event! But I couldn't worry about that!!! I HAD TO GET CONTROL OF ALL OF THEM & GET THEM UP & THEN GET MY PRECIOUS CHASER TO THE VET IMMEDIATELY!!! And, I did NOT know HOW I was going to do this in my condition & his condition!? So I called my new friend Tom, & just barley did get a hold of him, by two minutes or less!? And he rushed over & took me & Chaser to the vet, in my van! They were waiting!

So they cleaned his wounds, stapled him up, & then gave him tons of AB's, steriod shots, & treated him for shock! Sedated him a bit!? Told me that he could stay but that nobody would be there with him if he crashed! And, ask me if I wanted to take him home! OF COURSE I WANTED & DID TAKE HIM HOME!!! He DID get worse & would have left me, had I not had him with me! I laid across the end of the bed with him all night long! After having to tend to the others when I got back home! I got NO sleep, & then had to take him back the next morning! He did get through it! Thanks to a LOT of close care!!! And, I NEVER went to the doc to see about my own wounds or that stroke event thing!? Whatever it was!?

Then, I had to keep ALL of the males separated, all day every day until I could find homes for some of them!? So that's what I did!? But slowly I wore down & let my guard down a tiny bit!? And, then BAM!!! PAINT WENT FOR HIM AGAIN! And, then River joined in! And, I was freaking out, going OMG!!! Here we go again!!! And, I had all of my girls out this time too! But I jumped them & ordered them to stay the hell off & they stayed on the bed & obeyed! TG!!! And, I grabbed River first, because he was the smallest & easiet to get, & threw him in the dog room & shut the door! Then I went for Paint!

Well, when I did, that gave Chaser just a brief moment to come up off the floor just enough to come back in & try to defend himself! When he did, my fingers were apparently in the way!! So I almost lost the middle finger on my left hand, & got my rt hand severely injured too! Blood & fluids shot out everywhere & the pain was unbarable!!! But I HAD TO JUST TUNE IT OUT & KEEP GOING UNTIL I COULD GET PAINT OFF OF CHASER & GET ALL OF IT UNDER CONTROL! OTHERWISE CHASER WAS DEAD! AND, THAT WOULD BE IT FOR PAINT TOO!

So I just used all that adrenalyn to just tune it all out & just keep going! I had to get Paint by the hind legs & just drag him, & Chaser with him, all over the kitchen until I could somehow give Chaser the chance to get lose!? Well!? After dragging Paint, upside down by his back legs, long enough & slinging them both around the kitchen I finally got him off of Chaser! But then Chaser came in, while I was still trying to hold on, so I had to take my foot & do a very mild Karate kick to knock Chaser back across the kitchen & then work to keep them both apart until I could get Paint tossed into the living room & then slam the door shut! So that's what I did! Then, I put Chaser in his crate, in the bedroom, until I could go in the dog room & put River up! Then, I went into the living room & got Paint & put him up!

Then!? I had to grab Chaser & throw him into the tub & wash out his wounds, stuff then with Neo... & then bed him down in his crate while I called my neighbor to rush ME to the ER!!! All the vets were closed, so Chaser was going to have to wait until morning! So I shoved AB's down his throat, got ready & my neighbor came up & rushed me to the human ER! I could NOT USE EITHER OF MY HANDS!!! I HAD MASSIVE SWELLING IN BOTH!! AND PAIN THAT YOU CANNOT EVEN BEGIN TO IMAGINE!!!

There I had to clean them myself, with no numbing!!! And, no pain shot! They give me some pills to take by mouth only! And, I thought that they'd never ever kick in! I was screaming & crying the entire time!!! And, my neighbor set there cringing like crazy!!! IT WAS THE NIGHT FROM HELL!!! BOTH TIMES!!! BOTH NIGHTS!!!!

PAINT & CHIEF WERE TAKEN OFF BY THE NEW ENGLAND BRITTANY RESCUE LAST WEEKEND!! I HAD TO FIND SOMEBODY TO GET THEM OUT OF MY HOME ASAP!!! BUT UNTIL THEY GOT GONE MY LIFE WAS A LIVING HELL FOR A MONTH & A HALF!!

Oh ya! The last time!? My poor poor Star--the one with pancreatitis & seizures!? Well she had just had a spay done & was doing quiet terrible!! And, was resting on my bed! When all this hell broke lose, she freaked the hell out!!! Jumped up, from her death bed, & shit all over the floor between the side of my bed & my shelves, & then ran to hide in my bathroom with shit still flying out her A....! And, I HAD TO ALSO CLEAN ALL OF THAT UP & GET HER SETTLED BEFORE I COULD GO TO THE ER, BESIDES TAKING CARE OF CHASER!

So for over a week I could NOT use my hands! Then, to boot, I had to get Chaser to a vet the next day to be sedated, cleaned, treated, & stappled up too! And, so he & I are still recovering! I am now in PT with my hands & have had to take a ton of AB's myself! I have a hump on the side of my bird finger, on the lt hand, & a big knuckle on the same one, & can't straighten it, or use it.

But PT is already helping!! Painful!!! But helping!

Then, I took 3 of my Britt's out today to the park to play ball, exercise & walk. And, I saw the voting pole open there, so after I got done I decided to vote early! Right!? Well, some kind of problem came up & she called up town & they told her that I have a felony crimminal record!!!! WHICH I DO NOT!!! I HAVE NEVER EVER EVEN BEEN ARRESTED!!! So I had to go through tons of paperwork & had to vote the old fashioned way, with a paper ballat!

I mean OMG!!!! DOES ANYBODY HAVE THE LUCK THAT I HAVE??? TALK ABOUT THE LUCK OF THE IRISH!!! LOL :) GOOD GOD!!!

So right now, I'm trying to work part-time at THE PUPPY ZONE! It's a place that sells puppies! And, YES! I realize that many people may not agree with that, & I have my own reservations!? But I have not gotten any work anywhere else yet! And, I have 4 huge bet bills & major taxes to pay on my place in order to keep it! So I don't really have a choice, but to try it!? I HAVE TO GET ALL THESE HUGE VET BILLS PAID UP & GET MY TAXES PAID UP! I JUST HAVE TOO! But it's commission only!! And, it's almost impossible to spend 10 bucks a day going there & back, on no money & no gas! My BBF loanded me 20 bucks to try & make it work! But that will be out after my next trip there on Monday!

I can't believe that they won't even help me with gas! As of Mon... I will have 15 hrs of major hard labor in, cleaning up after all of these puppies & taking care of them, & have 30 bucks in gas tied up up in it! I just can't afford to keep it going! But!? There is a NO KILL SHELTER right down the hwy from there & a couple of her employees have gotten on there! So I am going to try to get on there! At least I would have a slarary! I need income that I can count on! But I might lose my SSI!? So it's really dicey!?

I'm super stressed out & losing my mind!!! They have a litter of Britt pups out there & I have bonded with the liver & wht female. No more males for me right now! Too much drama!!! But that female I could certainly live with!? :) But I can't afford her, so!? Unless they can work out something else that won't happen! I'll live! :) And, if I don't!? It sure won't be from that! LOL :)

So just trying to sell a pup out there & make some commission right now, & in the mean time get on at the NO KILL shelter down the road from there!? Trying mostly to pay up the vet bills, taxes, the 200 that my neighbor loaned me to get Chaser fixed up this last time & the 300 that my BBF loaned me to buy food--that I didn't have to use my hands to cook or clean, & to get my brakes fixed on the car, because they were supposed to come & get the van!?

So it's just been one insanity rt after the other & lots of drama!! But wayyyyy wayyyy more peace & sanity at my home since the other two male Britt's left & went north to a new home!

But I sure do miss them!!! I've just spent most of my time just crying my eyes out!!! Over Chaser!!! Over me & my wounds!! And, over my broken heart!!!

I'm ready to sale & find a better place towards the coast! I need a major change of EVERYTHING, esp... living space, in my life right now!? So I'm thinking about putting my home on the market & moving further south!? Or at least over to the Carolina's somewhere!?

So!? That's why I've not been here in a while now! I'm just now getting good use of my hands, &/or fingers!?

I have to go to WM shortly here & get some more food, for me! I still don't have internet at home & I'm at a rest.... rt now, & freezing my butt off!!! :)

So this is my update for now! Sorry there's soooo much shit here! Trust me!!! I could do without all the drama!!! LOL :) :(

As usual! My life is even more insane!? Though better since those two boys left! I miss them! But THE PEACE & NON-VIOLENCE IS GREAT!!!

And as usual!? Much needed meditations & prayers!

Thanks guys! And, sooo very very sorry for NOT being here sooo much lately! But I'm sure that you can see why!

Well! Will check in later/soon!