Multiple Sclerosis (MS) Support Group
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Okay! I had a lot of bloodwork done & an Cervical MRI, which I already know isn't good at all, from a cervical point of view!?
I am really nervous & scared! I am desarate for answers! But at the same time don't want to hear anything bad, like: I need some sort of major neck surger!? OR, I have something as bad, or even worse than MS!? Or that I have MS for that matter!
I don't want to hear any of that, but I don't want to hear that they just don't know either!!! I've had enough already & I've been to enough doctors & done enough shit already! I have a really good neuro NP right now, & I'm seeing the actual doctor tomorrow, to go over all of this!!!???
I don't want MS, & yet I want to hear it all at the same time!? I mean, I already have all of the symptoms of that stupid disease! So getting that diagnosis will at least give it a name! And, God help me I need a name for this bitch that's taring my life apart & making me miserable & giving me hell!
I need an answer/diagnosis, not only for me, but for others as well! I need everybody who ever doubted me, or called, or thought me to be a CRAZY DRUG-SEEKING LUNITIC to be proven wrong!!! Good or bad of me--I WANT TO RUB IT IN THEIR DAMNED FACES! JUST BECAUSE IT WILL MAKE ME FEEL BETTER!!! LOL :)
But if it is MS for sure, then I have a lot more bad shit to look forward to! But, I damned well know that something is wrong, because having those kinds of symptoms sure as hell ain't freaking normal!!!
So, I already know that something is wrong!!! It will at least let me know what! But, at the same time it will hurt & devatate me very much to hear that!
But will hurt & devastate me way worse it they tell me something worse!!!
So, I need your thoughts, prayers, hugs & suppport tonight, today!!!! I will let all of you know what they say to me tomorrow!!!
My appt is at 2~~~~ But I have to take medial transport there, so I will have to leave real early, & then wait forever on them to come & get me, & then ride all the way home with them! Always been a guy so far!
That's the other thing guys! I have to ride all the way over there with some damned stranger, sit through this whole damned thing all by myself, & then wait over there for however long, & then ride all the way home with this shit all by myself tomorrow!!! And, I can't even begin to tell you how much I do not want to do that!!!! That is the last thing I want but I am forced to do that right now!!!!!
So, need some support! And, I will let you guys know latter what they say!?
I am really nervous & scared! I am desarate for answers! But at the same time don't want to hear anything bad, like: I need some sort of major neck surger!? OR, I have something as bad, or even worse than MS!? Or that I have MS for that matter!
I don't want to hear any of that, but I don't want to hear that they just don't know either!!! I've had enough already & I've been to enough doctors & done enough shit already! I have a really good neuro NP right now, & I'm seeing the actual doctor tomorrow, to go over all of this!!!???
I don't want MS, & yet I want to hear it all at the same time!? I mean, I already have all of the symptoms of that stupid disease! So getting that diagnosis will at least give it a name! And, God help me I need a name for this bitch that's taring my life apart & making me miserable & giving me hell!
I need an answer/diagnosis, not only for me, but for others as well! I need everybody who ever doubted me, or called, or thought me to be a CRAZY DRUG-SEEKING LUNITIC to be proven wrong!!! Good or bad of me--I WANT TO RUB IT IN THEIR DAMNED FACES! JUST BECAUSE IT WILL MAKE ME FEEL BETTER!!! LOL :)
But if it is MS for sure, then I have a lot more bad shit to look forward to! But, I damned well know that something is wrong, because having those kinds of symptoms sure as hell ain't freaking normal!!!
So, I already know that something is wrong!!! It will at least let me know what! But, at the same time it will hurt & devatate me very much to hear that!
But will hurt & devastate me way worse it they tell me something worse!!!
So, I need your thoughts, prayers, hugs & suppport tonight, today!!!! I will let all of you know what they say to me tomorrow!!!
My appt is at 2~~~~ But I have to take medial transport there, so I will have to leave real early, & then wait forever on them to come & get me, & then ride all the way home with them! Always been a guy so far!
That's the other thing guys! I have to ride all the way over there with some damned stranger, sit through this whole damned thing all by myself, & then wait over there for however long, & then ride all the way home with this shit all by myself tomorrow!!! And, I can't even begin to tell you how much I do not want to do that!!!! That is the last thing I want but I am forced to do that right now!!!!!
So, need some support! And, I will let you guys know latter what they say!?
I dont know what your medical transport is there but with a bit of good fortune maybe there will be nice people in the car/vehicle with you that you can chat to as well so you wont feel so scared on the way in too.
Take care & let us know the results.
IF YOU GUYS NEED ANYTHING LET ME KNOW!!!!
i hope you get some answers very soon. in the meantime, know that it's going to be okay.