Multiple Sclerosis (MS) Support Group
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How many of you feel you're a better person.
How would my life have turned out if my MS was'nt here to slow me down.
What would I have done if I could run.
Where would my mind have got me if it was still bursting with confidence.
Would I have been arrogant, audacious, care free, ignorant or just damn right evil.
I often believe that everything happends for a reason, may be having MS made me a better person,
I'm confident without the arrogance, I'm audacious without being reckless, I'm care free without being careless, But now I can be sensitive without being involved, I can be passionate with compassion, I can understand without being understood, There is nothing I should be or take for granted.
I see so many people running through life, not one could tell me what thay saw on the way through.
How would my life have turned out if my MS was'nt here to slow me down.
What would I have done if I could run.
Where would my mind have got me if it was still bursting with confidence.
Would I have been arrogant, audacious, care free, ignorant or just damn right evil.
I often believe that everything happends for a reason, may be having MS made me a better person,
I'm confident without the arrogance, I'm audacious without being reckless, I'm care free without being careless, But now I can be sensitive without being involved, I can be passionate with compassion, I can understand without being understood, There is nothing I should be or take for granted.
I see so many people running through life, not one could tell me what thay saw on the way through.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
I have always tried to be a good person. But I was a mjor workaholic if not at my job then cleaning my house. I never took time out to relax and vacation like most.
The only thing I would change if I could go back is I would have slowed down and had more fun. Being Type A has not paid off for me.
But on the other hand I have been allowed to rest and go into charity field. Which I enjoy. I think like you said I was forced to slow down for a reason. Now I find myself looking at the sky or trees sometimes never did that before always rushing to and from work..
I only met my girlfeiend because I took time out and looked around.
I dont believe my time in life has been wasted, sometimes I believe I could have done much more but the way I was and being ex Army, I think I would have met with death, I was sooo reckless.
I have also expressed interest in getting a camera someday to capture the beauty of Nature.
The way my MS developed since 1991 and nearly destroyed me in 2002-3, if I didn't find what I found in 2003, I don't think I'd have been around much longer. I nearly lost all hope in March 2003.
So it wasn't the MS that made me a better person, but it lead me to LDN, and that surely has.
Definitely taking less for granted...So, yes, I've changed in that respect. More appreciative of today, but still looking forward to tomorrow :)
You have said so well what I have always thought about having MS, thank you. It was great to read and reminded me of all the things I do have going in my life, most of all as you said, to just slow down a bit and not run through this life, but to take a sweet stroll among all that is in this crazy, wonderful, beautiful life.
Hugs
Morgaine