First of all, you DID NOT cause yourself to have MS. MS is an inflammatory disease of the Central Nervous System (CNS) - that's the brain and spinal cord. Predominantly, it is a disease of the "white matter" tissue. The white matter is made up of nerve fibres which are responsible for transmitting communication signals both internally within the CNS and between the CNS and the nerves supplying rest of the body. You may have had MS for years and did not know it, Depression is a symptom of MS. So just take that thought out of your mind because it just doesn't happen like that.

If you get a dx of MS, or even probably/possible MS, you should start treatment/medications as soon as possible. A new study shows that it's not enough to treat MS as soon as it's diagnosed. The time to start treatment is when you've had a single MS-like event. If you get on aggressive drug therapy early, it is really proven to slow the disease down. It can stop a major MS episode from happening, where the body cannot repair itself. Just remember, a dx is not a death sentence. Stress is really bad for MS, so try to stop worrying and get in to see that neuro as soon as possible and get on treatment.

I also personally don't believe your depression and eating disorders caused your MS, this is a common thing MSers do is to blame it on something they did or a poor lifestyle, I believe it is predetermined in our genes. There are healthy athletes with top fitness and diets that come down with ms.

However I do believe that stress and a poor diet can worsen the symptoms and that would be great to get these sorted out as soon as possible along with early treatment. I am optimistic for you, you are young, and with all the attention ms is getting both medically and in the media the chances of you seeing a cure in your lifetime have never been better.

Although it really seems scary in the beginning it gets much easier with time and you can still have a great future.

thank u , both of u for replying...u guys made me feel better....im glad u think its not my fault....ive been on and off psych meds too for bp..mood stabilizers ...cuz they be soo strong they cause lesions?

yeah my neuro wants to see me in 2 weeks...if i have ms im started treatment...im started therapy too asap ...i need to handle this anxiety and eating problems too

Your most welcome,

Good luck with the early treatment, anxiety and eating problems, well done that you are reaching out and seeking help!

Here is a utube video blogger who shares her bipolar experiences, she is doing really good on zyprexa, I don't know if this causes lesions?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d1LcvY05pPc&list=UU2CeiSmdqn86ItMwWrxY0_A&index=3&feature=plcp

I got sick at 22 hun! I know how scary it can be. I was same...so stressed, sad, and starved sometimes I thought my heart would give out...and the trauma of these situations could have added to my first exacerbations.
We don't cause our MS, but we can make it worse.
Def concentrate on good diet, sleeping, exercising--TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF as if you're very fragile...because now you might be.

If anything maybe this is the Universe's way of telling you to take care of your body. Becasue now if you don't you're going to paaay...haha. When I don't take care of my MS in every facet it causes me horrible pain and disability for days/weeks/months.

PM me if you need an ear, advice --whatever. MS has been with me now almost 6 years. I am happier NOW --even as sick as I am--than I was when I was healthy :)

There is another side to the fear and initial shock. If you have MS, its not a death sentence. You'll find a new normal and be stronger for the experience! We're all here for you in the mean time!

BIG HUGS

thank you Jessie! soo muchh! wow u were very young too! just 3 years older than me now....thank u for supporting me..ima hold u up on that offer cuz im such a cry baby lol!

I was dx'd at 26, symptoms since I was 16. Get on the meds asap if you have it :) My doctor put me on zoloft after to help with depression..it has helped alot. There is no way you could have caused any of it though (even if my father n law has diffrent views ;) ) good luck!

Yes my mom thinks I caused this my not eating and being so depressed and taking anti depressants psychotics and mood stabilizers ...I hope ur doing well ..wat does ur dad say to u?

Oh I'm so sorry for you. I know it's a terriable, depessing, big thing to have to deal with at such a young age; I just hope that you will do better actually dealing with it than I did.

I was dx at 18 and when the double vision went away I convinced myself that it was just a sinus infection, so I did not start any treatment until years later. Even though my neurologist said I should be on something "To preserve what abilities I had now.", I even tried to convince him that the MRI results didn't mean much to a person who is not seeing double anymore. Man, kids can be dumb!!

I honestly believe now at 33 that if I had started and STAYED on ANY treatments way back then I would be relying less on my crutches every day now. Or even if I just had been more accepting of the realities of any sickness I obviously had back in 98' instead of decideing to just drink my problems away because I did not see any benift to living or wanting to beleive what some Dr. said I should do.

I hope you find strength! And nooo it is not your fault for causing a thing wrong if it's MS or somethin else! It's just the happy luck we ill people tend to have that is creating our personal fun.

i am soooo sorry...i really amm :-(...i had double vision too along with slurred speech and i could move my arms and legs wen iwas having an issue so when everything went away i almost didnt bother with it anymore but my doc persisted that i come to see her and ordered an mri and i got 2 opinions so far saying i have ms but my mom wants me to get 3 4 5 before i start any meds....she wants me to start holistic medicine cuz she feel like meds make everything worse and she doesnt think i have an issue "cuz everyone gets dizzy"

i will take care of me now....i promise

i am soooo sorry...i really amm :-(...i had double vision too along with slurred speech and i could move my arms and legs wen iwas having an issue so when everything went away i almost didnt bother with it anymore but my doc persisted that i come to see her and ordered an mri and i got 2 opinions so far saying i have ms but my mom wants me to get 3 4 5 before i start any meds....she wants me to start holistic medicine cuz she feel like meds make everything worse and she doesnt think i have an issue "cuz everyone gets dizzy"

i will take care of me now....i promise

i am soooo sorry...i really amm :-(...i had double vision too along with slurred speech and i could move my arms and legs wen iwas having an issue so when everything went away i almost didnt bother with it anymore but my doc persisted that i come to see her and ordered an mri and i got 2 opinions so far saying i have ms but my mom wants me to get 3 4 5 before i start any meds....she wants me to start holistic medicine cuz she feel like meds make everything worse and she doesnt think i have an issue "cuz everyone gets dizzy"

i will take care of me now....i promise