I imagine we all feel that way at one time or another. Several years ago, when I was still mobile, I remember worrying and being scared, depressed, and angry. It was stealing joy from my life. It changed who I was and negatively impacted my marriage, work, and friendships. I started keeping a gratitude journal. At first I could only think of one or two things a day, however, once I shifted my focus, I was able to find many things to be grateful for. I also pressed more into God and found some peace. Today, although I no longer walk, I have more joy and my marriage is better than ever. Life has gotten infinitely more challenging. I too live with pain daily. I figure MS has hijacked my body but I am refusing to let it steal my joy. It takes faith and practice. Its like a living meditation of sorts. I am sorry you feel overwhelmed. We here at DS get it. Blessings.

I agree with what Baywatch said. I haven't gone to God for help/peace now though I did in the beginning. That was until so called friends avoided me, wouldn't help me & didn't invite me to things. It changed over time & I got fed up with always being the one to try to see them etc.
I now have a few really close friends & a wonderful hubby who are my support & I share with.
I am in pain all the time esp now that I have back problems. It can be very draining & make you less like your normal outlook.
I do try to appreciate the good things like hubby helping me, friends popping in/phoning etc & Mum occasionally being nice. This is the only way I can feel better.
Actually another way that makes me feel good (not boasting or self promoting), but I find I feel better if I help others either in person by sharing info with other friends with ms, & also online.
I was training to be a Pastoral Care worker so know basics (more theory than basics I guess), so I like to use it.
Try & do/think something nice or positive each day & appreciate something each day, it becomes easier the more you do it.

IM SORRY YOU ARE HURTING. I UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL .I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER SOON....I HATE MS...G

Thank you everybody who has responded to my post. Most of the time I just keep all of my feelings to myself because it seems like if you don't have ms, then you can't understand. People do their best to try and offer suggestions but they don't realize what is a normal remedy for them may not work for me. But whatever, I keep pressing on. My mom has ms also and I'm normally her motivation. I don't get it though, why can't the doctors find a cure or a way to protect the myelin sheath. Again thank you all so much for the encouraging words. I love you all, and that is real.

Keya, I absolutely understand how you feel. I feel that my brain can not take multiple matters at the same time anymore and when I feel I am about to explode or as you said a nervous breakdown, then I slow down no matter how light and simple the duties are.

Anxiety is one of the "pleasures" we're blessed with..lol so please learn how to help yourself. Just know that you are not alone on here.
love to you.

Thank Mteverest

Hi, sorry you are having a hard time :( I have a hard time everyday and feel completely useless! But I really try not to think about how life used to be. I am greatful for the very few things I can still do. You are not alone here.

I must say that I've be feeling better since I have you guys and gals to relate to. Hugs for everyone!

Glad you are able to feel a bit better now. I find if I share my frustrations with friends with ms, they understand me & as the saying goes "a problem shared is a problem halved".
I would be so scared with your Mum having ms too, at least she understands what you go through.