Multiple Personalities Support Group
Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...
one of our little ones (sarah) emailed my therapist a couple days ago asking if she could help with the memories.
i know we need to work on this as they are getting to be too much to handle. sarah is terrified of them, and gets "stuck" in them, forgetting that she's not there anymore. we have to do something about them.
but there are some parts that are really upset with her request. sarah's already unsure about it because we were told for so long that it was something we should never tell anyone about. and many parts still believe it should be kept a secret. and they're afraid to deal with them because they just want to pretend it didn't happen.
up until this point in therapy we've really just talked about issues that have come up at present. we started seeing this therapist in may, and were getting to know her/see if we could trust her. we've been avoiding all talk of the past, even though we know it's something that has to come up eventually.
we know this needs to be done. but we also know it's going to be really hard. and some are wondering, is it worth it? will it really help and make things better?
and now sarah's upset because she started to tell. she's scared something bad is going to happen. that she is going to be punished.
i know we need to work on this as they are getting to be too much to handle. sarah is terrified of them, and gets "stuck" in them, forgetting that she's not there anymore. we have to do something about them.
but there are some parts that are really upset with her request. sarah's already unsure about it because we were told for so long that it was something we should never tell anyone about. and many parts still believe it should be kept a secret. and they're afraid to deal with them because they just want to pretend it didn't happen.
up until this point in therapy we've really just talked about issues that have come up at present. we started seeing this therapist in may, and were getting to know her/see if we could trust her. we've been avoiding all talk of the past, even though we know it's something that has to come up eventually.
we know this needs to be done. but we also know it's going to be really hard. and some are wondering, is it worth it? will it really help and make things better?
and now sarah's upset because she started to tell. she's scared something bad is going to happen. that she is going to be punished.
We support you.... and believe you can do it.
I don't even want to tell you what my protector gary would do to anyone who tries to punish Sarah... but it wouldn't be pretty.
It hurts all of us in here terribly when we get the memories...but afterward? It's somehow lighter inside the headspace.
...We so badly want to be...fully here. Fully alive, not walking around with a pool of tears inside.
sarah was able to talk a little about the memories, and our therapist helped us with it. not much, but enough for now, and at least it's a start I guess.
also, ended up in hospital again overnight last night. because the memories were too much. but couldn't tell the Dr. that . . .
its so awesome that Sarah wants to share but make sure you are ready to receive. You are also important