Its really shitty dealing with the self hatred we have for ourselves. Right now Im talking with another friend and we are sharing the exact same thing of how much we despise ourselves. All I can recommend is to hold onto that single molecule of hope that is within you that says that you deserve to be happy. It might be extremely difficult to find but it is there and I for one do not consider you worthless at all. I am thankful that you are part of this family hylie. You are always provide insightful honest and sincere responses and that makes me very thankful for you.

Hylie,
Which side of you are these cognitive distortions coming from? I would like to respectfully disagree.
You yourself have helped me so much with my cognitive distortions... You taught me CBT strategies... Eg. . what are the chances that you're a sack of poop and worthless?? Turns out, not very high.
In fact, turns out... You're amazing, super funny, so sweet, so sensitive, supportive, kind, caring, the kind of person I would want in my support network, a friend :-)

((((We love you hylie)))

We forgot to add brilliant and compassionate and other stuff to our list of the real hylie....
Anyone reading this post, please send hylie a hug of support!

I sent the funny face because hylie can really make me laugh and that is a gift for someone like me.

I think it's me...
Yeah, I really do hate being me that much.

I've been physically ill for so long I've forgotten what it's like to not be exhausted and mentally in a fog...I'm so tired...I got sick in 2002.

Since 2008 I've been all trauma, all the time...when not being busy being sick...and I'm angry at myself for being a goddamn weakling who can't work a second job like everyone else I work with.

Everyone else does it, but I'm too much of a special fucking snowflake. So I'm stuck working ONE job!
I can't pay bills on one job!

I hate being helpless. I hate it. I'd rather be dead.

I'm sorry you're hurting so much. Since you added me on here I've seen you give really helpful advice to so many people, to reach out and be there and make people feel understood. You're really, really contributing a lot on here. I don't blame or judge you for hurting, for feeling like you do, but I see your posts almost every day and I'm impressed.

Not to sound too theoretical, but I would be interested in others feedback:
-if we as humans are capable of believing in 'ideas or things' that are NOT reality based, wouldn't this include the beliefs we have about ourselves?
- Beliefs can be changed if we are willing to accept new information and set aside old beliefs, true?
- so isn't one of the objectives on therapy to speak directly to the side of ourselves that is holding on tightly to incorrect beliefs and replace them with new ones?

I like believing I can modify myself. I know I have through therapy. I had a post similar to this one a couple weeks ago. My first thought is always negative about self.

but here I am and every day I fight and try.i also sometimes allow a day to be sad/upset/whatever. I find sometimes it helps.

for what its worth, we value and appreciate you!

Y'all are awesome...I'm feeling a bit better.
Being chronically ill on top of being somewhat nuts is really sucky.

Hylier, you know what my bunnies (long story) told me to do with the shit? MAKE FURTALIZER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The biggest most beautiful flowers grow is the richest POOP! My personal faves are Lilies. What's yours? and then you have all these beautiful flowers for the Butterfiles to come and dance in. Don't forget the Humming Birds! And the Gnomes and Sprites!

My therapist gave me an idea one day. she said get some markers that write on glass and leave pretty words for yourself on your mirror. I was surprised that it actualy helps (have always hade bady issues). i also (and i had done this for a long time) print out quotes, affermations, words of wisdom all pretty like and put them all over the wall in my living room and bed room where i see them every day. I still remember the day i looked at them and litterally said "Shit! They Sunk In!"

you are wonderful. you were the first to friend me. Thank you for being YOU!

always wanted to say that word / good for you

I don't know you in real life hylie, but you are really cool here, so you can't be all bad. If you have recently done something bad, stop it, and make it right if you can. If you are just feeling angry about stuff from the past, you are not doiing it now, so try and be easy on yourself. Hope you are feeling better now, since this post is a few days old.