I was talking with Ella using our notebook and she made me realise. We've been used again..... Used and the person got away with it... That person is my Ex. I've been reading through the old " love letters" and remembered how these words used to make me smile, now they just stab me and cause me pain. I read them and think, every letter, every kiss, everything was just a lie. I got punished for loving someone, and trusting them. It was a mistake, a big one. I loved her and she crashed me into the ground and left me with nothing, just like the rest of my abusers, yet this one seems to hurt the most. I have vowed never to love again. Never to trust again. And I stand by it. Because of her I started smoking and drinking again, and I just wish she could feel the pain she caused, but it doesn't seem to hurt her one bit.
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