Multiple Personalities Support Group
Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...
This could be very triggering. Do not read if easily triggered.
I've been on a journey exploring all my parts and have come to acceptance of them. There is a lot of different opinions about integration. That has never been my goal, although that has been the result. I feel much more whole.
This has led to my parts expressing themselves more openly. One part that has been expressing herself is my female part. I find myself wearing woman's jeans about 95% of the time along with woman's underware and woman's polos and sweats. I plan on buying several nightgowns and a bathrobe. I used to feel a lot of shame about this part now I don't.
There is also a part that enjoys giving up control to women. This is another part that I once felt shame about. Now I let that part enjoy that. I have been experiencing that often lately. With going in the hospital and having a visiting nurse, a home health aid, an OT and a PT.
I also find myself enjoying the experience of physical pain from a woman.
I just need to get this out and own it to increase acceptance of those parts.
I've been on a journey exploring all my parts and have come to acceptance of them. There is a lot of different opinions about integration. That has never been my goal, although that has been the result. I feel much more whole.
This has led to my parts expressing themselves more openly. One part that has been expressing herself is my female part. I find myself wearing woman's jeans about 95% of the time along with woman's underware and woman's polos and sweats. I plan on buying several nightgowns and a bathrobe. I used to feel a lot of shame about this part now I don't.
There is also a part that enjoys giving up control to women. This is another part that I once felt shame about. Now I let that part enjoy that. I have been experiencing that often lately. With going in the hospital and having a visiting nurse, a home health aid, an OT and a PT.
I also find myself enjoying the experience of physical pain from a woman.
I just need to get this out and own it to increase acceptance of those parts.
My own experience and from what I have learned in other support groups that deal with gender, identity, sexual identity, etc. reveals that there is nothing wrong or shameful with feeling like or expressing oneself as a gender other than the role assigned by society. The human experience is complex (even for non multiples) and there is much gray area.
I have transgender friends who went through the whole operation and now they feel true to themselves. One went from MTF and is gay so she prefers women.
With regard to what you enjoy sexually or physically or psychologically is really a personal preference and there is nothing to be ashamed of with that either... Just like anything else, practice safe judgement and enjoy.
So I think it is great that you are validating these parts, they are all beautiful.. Celebrate them!
My mother had me wear some of her clothes when I was a kid. I never wanted to be anything like my father, so being physically a male, it's something that makes me like my father.
it may not seem like it but i had a similar thing happen...in my life i was abused by females more than males and at first it was thought trust were they got to me so than i was abused several other times by males who were terrible and not in the family..so, i am a female and i feel like i female but at times bcus of how my life was at a young age, i didnt know things and well i felt lesbian and bisexual alot. at times i couldnt be intimate with my husband bcus i didnt feel right..than i realized that watching lesbian porn helped...than i realized it was bcus i was comfortable with my sister and she was first to take advantage, also my cousiins and best friend.. after i faced the fact that i felt more comfortable with a females body i realized it just "poofed" and went away. now that part of me is no longer ashamed OF HER BODY OR TO REMEBER THAT AT SOME POINT I WAS GAY BCUS IT BROUGHT COMFORT.. and now i that i faced the reality i no longer watch porn and i told my husband of all this and he was very supportive and understood fine. so it helped me to over-all not feel ashamed of myself. now that part of me is also me and i no longer struggle through that matter.