Tell thoughs son of bitches to get out of your host! Thoughs demons have no fucking right! Get the fuck out of her you stupid demons! I challenge you! COME AT ME! Let her go! >:/ Jessica! Listen to me! They won't help you. It's a trap! You need to get the fuck out of there! Tell them demons to fuck off. Get rid of them. They'll kill you! -Ella

OK first off Ella please keep in mind you have a baby inside your body. You will not invite demons to come too to look. You take care of that baby.

I've been abused badly in SRA rituals so I sympathize Jessica but I'm confused and need some more info.

Your body is at the keyboard typing so being literally drugged seems unlikely. Are you saying that demonic spirits are putting your host in a catatonic state by their influence?

If you are not the host it might help to know who are you?

Can you say more about what happened inside you all right before the host left? I'm just confused but I want to help.

I'm sick of these god damn demons causing shit! They've been attacking us to! Im fucking tired of demons causing hell and these guys don't deserve it! I can take them!! I know I can... Oh yeah, the baby. :/ I still wanna help!! -Ella

I know you have spoken before of this catatonic alter Jessica.These cults do program alters that confuse and go silent or shutdown when you get further into therapy.

GeorgSand,
My name is Katherine. I am considered the oldest and wisest of the system. I will try to give you some history as to how the situation came about.

We wrote about Victoria being in the arms of the Lord. She was being controled by the demonic world and mutilated us in unspeakable ways. That was programed in her. Right before they raped her with a knife she split again and made Stephany(the innocent child) leave. Stephany is in a catatonic state of mind.

We all have been through tramendous work lately. Our host was dealing with our stuff and some other major stressors and she
was convinced one night to visit Stephany for some rest. She's been gone since. However, our therapist and some of us believe she is being decieved by demonic spirits to bring down all of us into a catonic state of mind.

We are all unable to stay present for long periods of time so for a while we have been switching a lot. As a matter of fact often times alters will sign their name as Jessica but it's not her. Mary has been writing a lot lately she is super spiritual.

I hope this gives you some insight. Thanks for your willingness to help!

I appreciate your frustration with the demonic world Ella and I must agree with GeogeSand please take care of you and your baby! Try to stay in the presence of God to keep harmony in you and for the child. Thank you for your concern!

My experience with Satanism is that I was sexually violated and tortured until I could not cope with the experience and I split into an alter. They wanted this to happen and they continued to hurt our body. Even the alters came to a point where they would believe anything they were told to just have the pain stop. My alters were given beliefs and instructions to hurt us and fear more torture from them if we succeeded too much in life. If we began to heal. I dont believe in God but I think you can believe these destructive influences within you are literally demons and it would not change how to help yourself.

BTW I asked my Christian alter Peter what he thought and he said demons can not take over every alter and the host if you have great faith in the Lord. He said the holy spirit will protect those with faith.

The way I have dealt with the instincts to self harm or destruct was to confront the alters with these instructions head on and have compassion for them. In essence love them and hear everything I can about their experience. This is how I know about the torture and pain is what scares them into hurting us more. You can believe these are not alters but demons. OK this is weird for me but Peter says you can call on the Lord to help. With the holy spirit with you, you can feel Victoria and Stephanie again and love them awake.

We have always had the strength and confidence of Laura to take on alters who are in so much pain they believe they must hurt us. Since your host is the one asleep I still believe you have strong alters who increase in strength when you band together to help. You understand all the stress your host has been through. She may really want to sleep. You have to find the spirit of love within you and love her awake. Tell her to come back and that she is needed. I dont believe, and Peter does not believe either that evil can force the entire group to shut down unless you had embraced the destructive message completely from all of you. Unless you do this it is just our opinion but we think you have to be strong and have confidence together and fight the destructive messages. Believe in Life. What youre going through has never happened to me so all I can do here is give you this my single opinion. Pray, have faith and love yourselves all you can. I hope you succeed.

Hi Jessica,
I had a catatonic alter for a long time. She would just lay there "being dead". First thing to realize is that an alter is part of you. If you are not dead, neither are they. They may be being quiet for any number of reasons, but they are there. If you would like to discuss this further, message me. I've been there. You are not forsaken. Hang on. safe hug.
Stephanie et al

Hi Jessica, I have experienced what you are going through in simular ways, as I too was raised in a very harse religious cult. Sometimes shadows enter the inside world, at first there were so many shadows it was really hard to get anywhere in therapy. After almost two years I have been able to now learn how to confront the shadows. I demand in Jesus name they tell me what right the think they have to be here. They must tell me, most usually they come with a lie that I was programmed to believe as a child. When I am close to revealing a memory is usually when the shadows show themselves, making it so my host can not hear or think, so much confusion. I say a prayer demanding in the name of Jesus to reveal why they believe they have a right, which gives me the lie, then in the name of Jesus I bind them mute and inmobile unable to speak or move and demand they go to the father so that he might deal with them. Once they reveal themselves to you you have the power in the name of Jesus to demand they leave! They can not stay. I myself personaly don't believe your host is missing but may be surrounded by your protectors at this time. This is only my experience I hope it helps. Sending Heartprints your way.

WOW! Thank you everyone for sharing your experiences and insight. We are going to see our therapist today. We will share your experiences with her and pray that the Holy Spirit shows us the way. i am so sorry that so many of us have experienced such evil acts. However, I also believe God will make something beautiful of it all. God bless you all!
Love,
Mary

This reminds me. About 1 or 2 years ago me and Ella and LeVorg took up voodoo and dark magic. Eventually, Ella was drawn to Satanic Ritual thanks to LeVorg. Soon the demons came after us, they did terrible things..... *shudder* they possessed me as well, they made me try to cut my sister into pieces and eat her. They've also came back a few weeks ago and tortured us.... I can't remember how Ella got the demons to leave the body. But she did. The problem is there hard to get rid of. -Bailey