Well it is your body thats the truth.that also makes it your responsibility to protect the parts of yourself that dont want to be hurt anymore.I think there is a part of you that doesnt want to be hurt and is tired of it.i hope you can try and listen for her/him and hear it.
I know you must be in alot of pain and i do get it...I think trying to find another outlet to let the pain out might help...(caring thoughts )

it would have been good if you had of left your name so I could addres you personally but thats cool. I also struggle with this and get tired of people telling me I shouldnt hurt the body by cutting or other things that I do. Youre right frankly it is none of their business because others do things that i dont like but i dont say anything. Im glad you dont hurt yourself too badly though. Maybe its a matter of limiting ourselves and orking out why we do it to see if there is something ele we could do that is better in helping us.

Chris11

I am always supportive of you,,, I just hope for you as special and beuiful I see in you that you learn a more effective safe way to express this enormous pain ie art music boxing working out ,,, any thing that goes outward of you why?? because dont let em win just my opinion every time you do it they win,, and you know what I am saying when I choose to drink coke all day overeat not get outa the bed or take my dog out all signs of deression not taking med then the M,,, f ,,,,,, win you got me ,, this is the old music teacher I care about you kiddo

"none of our business' , like you really don't want us to care? yeah, it's yo9ur body and not mine, so why do I care? cuz I do, just cuz.

I've puzzled over SI a lot, and of course cutting is the one people can see, and is more shocking and permanently scarring than most people know how to deal with. Which brings me to your cutting. I have not cut, although I think about it A LOT, and have done other SI things that don't show. Like, banging my head against a wall. Biting myself, HARD but where nobody can see the bruise. Even little things that you might do to "punish" yourself or just becuase. (see my journal entry for today and you'll see what I mean)
Cutting can be, and I think usually is, a step further into causing pain to yourself. For instance, I showed a big bruise to my dr. once, (which was a HUGE risky step for myself, in my mind) and he wrote in his after-visit comments, that I should find some other way to express my pain than biting, as it can lead to other things like cutting.
And cutting can become an addiction just like drugs and alcohol. cutting also leaves a permanent scar which will never go away. That might not matter to you right now, but it probably will later in your life. You said that you're not hurting anyone, but you are. You are hurting yourself and anyone around you who sees it. Cutting scars are scary to people who care, and something to (highly) judge you about to people who don't.
Not everyone else does it. Yes, some other people do it, and have done it in the past. And it has come out in the open to the public that it exists, so it seems it has become a "popular" and acceptable and common occurance. But that is part of the sliding denial of our society in general. It has probably been more prevalant than most people have known about until now.

I think the more important thing about cutting is, not so much about whether or not you do it, or how often or how deeply, but why you are doing it. Just like drugs and alcohol, cutting is a way to distract you from your inner pain. And just like drugs and alcohol, it may help you feel better for that moment, but eventually if you keep doing it, it can get very ugly and life-threatening. But not like drugs and alcohol, where some may be relatively harmless, and most "everybody" does drink alcohol at least occasionally. But occasionally cutting yourself is much more significant because it leaves a permanent mark. Which suggests that the pain you are trying to cope with is deeper than the usual pain people do drugs and drink about. It also suggests shameful feelings about your pain. Finding the source of that pain and working through it, without the shame is what's most important for you.

((( hugs ))).
starfish.

Thank you guys for the comments and sadly its to late to worry about the scars my upper arm is covered with scars on top of scars like a sleeve . That what makes me not care anymore ,,,
@winter: since 7th grade this was my way of dealing my other parts dont want me to cut, they try to hit my razer and get me in trouble but that's how I deal.,.. we all have our way some more heather than others but you dont see me saying anything to them ..

@chris that's exactly how I feel just limit ourselves

@bmw you have always supported us and for that I thank you its just hard when that's what you always turn to and to me its not letting them win its me taking control and controlling something for once

@xa1n thank you for caring


@starfish its to late to be worried about scars and since they won't go away i m starting not to care if people see I can't change it..
I cut on my upper arm so sleeves hide it well and its safe and away from any veins and stuff ...

I know my source of my pain but I have no voice my parents taught me that and this was my way of expressing, of fighting back and taking control...of dealing with the horrible things done to me,,,,
- Takiah

Hopeless, you're not hopeless!! What's even more than all the different ways you find to cope, even "healthy" ones, if issues are under all the commotion, it is still not healthy. It is not near as important whether or not you have scars or any other kind of visible effects from dysfuntional coping, but that the dysfunction part of the coping stops. And that can only happen if and when you find that source. And that will only happen if and when you feel safe enough, both on the inside and the outside, to do that.

Safe.. I long for that feeling

Me, too, hopeless....I feel VERY safe here. Not sure why that can't, or doesn't often happen in therapy, but I am very glad to have you all to talk to.

Me too starfish