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Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...
Has anyone had a personality come out, me Nora, to deal with things, but recognize that your core is watching every move I am doing? I'm going through something that I have never experience before. It's like she is watching me function throughout the day. She is seeing the world through my eyes, like I'm the window that she cannot open. She does not make the decissions or communicate to the outside world, but she is watching.
k2hsharpe
perhaps she's watching you interact with the world and learning through you to trust the world again? Do you communicate directly with her?
Foresaken
I find this happens A LOT. From my experience, this is how the alters know what is going on so they can deal with the situation in their own way (good or bad) when it arises. If your alter is not able to take control, I would say that's a good thing, however I wouldn't be too concerned if they are watching.
cassichase
I just left a post in "I have not ever been out so long" and as I explained there I'm back and I have learned so much from Nora. I was exhausted and suicidal, so Nancy came out. However, when Nancy got too tired for being out so long Nora came out. I like Nora. She is smart, realistic, confident and she gets things done. I was watching her from the inside. I was watching how she took care of things and how she was such a strong personality in a good way. Finally when I felt rested and learned a lot from Nora I was ready to come back. So, here I am feeling so much better and thinking clearly in my own head! Thanks for your support!
starfish
That's a common experience. The official term for it is "co-presence". It is exactly as you are describing, while another alter is out, it is possible for the core personality to also be aware of what's going on at the same time but unable to interact in the environment.
cassichase
Starfish, I did not know that. I just experienced it. Now I can name it. Thanks!
minchow227
This is what I and my personalities feel like constantly. When one or two come out I can see everything and hear everything they do. The best way I can describe it is like I am standing next to them at the same time. When I have to come out and deal with something, I simply step forward and they step behind me, but they are still there watching and listening all the time. When I am finished with what I need to do, they step back in front and I step behind them, but I am still there. I have never experienced the "loss of time" because I am never truly gone, just sitting back and letting them handle whatever it may be that they need to. However, when it comes to recalling memory it is blurry, but I can remember bits and pieces. I believe the term is known as "Selective Amnesia." PS. I am sorry for the long message, I just didn't know anyone else has experienced this same feeling.
cassichase
Minchow227, I appreciate you sharing your experiences. I found that when I used to switch having to deal with so much PTSD I would lose time and completely switch. However, after years of therapy and the appropriate medications I started to integrate. I thought I was completely integrated, but PTSD stirred up again and one of my alter showed up. This was when I was watching everything that she was doing, while she was out. I do not know if it is a lesser of the two types of switching, but it was less frightening to me this way. Perhaps, my mind, throughout the years, has been trained to stay present so much that I automatically did it partially when I switched. All I know is that when my personality made me feel safe and I was rested I came back. I can stay present now and start living! Praise God!
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