Multiple Personalities Support Group
Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...
**Trigger Warning** Just to be safe for the little ones.
I recently created a post here in which I said that during abuse when you dissociate you are basically deeply hypnotized and in that deep hypnotic state whatever your abuser says to you can make you believe you felt pleasure or participated when in actuality you did not.I have come to discover that that is only half of the story.The other half of the story is when you come out of this dissociation(hypnotic state) whatever your abuser said to you is then sent to your subconscious along with the alter that was created at that time.It is well know that the subconscious drives the conscious mind thus if you have these suppressed alters that have been programmed to believe these falsities about abuse they can push these disturbing feelings into your conscious mind.Leading to understandable but unnecessary shame,guilt and self loathing.Also leading to Psychosexual disorders.Here's an exceprt about Psychosexual disorders to explain.
Paraphilias and Sexual Ritual
Paraphilias are psychosexual disorders defined for clinical and research purposes in the DSM-IV-TR. They are defined there as recurrent, intense, and sexually arousing fantasies, urges, or behaviors generally involving nonhuman objects, the suffering or
humiliation of oneself or ones partner, or children or other nonconsenting persons,and that occur over a period of at least six months. Better known and more common paraphilias include exhibitionism (exposure), fetishism (objects), frotteurism
(rubbing), pedophilia (child), sexual masochism (self pain), sexual sadism (partner pain), and voyeurism (looking). Less known and less common paraphilias include scatologia (talk), necrophilia (corpses), partialism (body parts), zoophilia (animals),coprophilia (feces), klismaphilia (enemas), urophilia (urine), infantilism (baby),
hebephilia (female youth), ephebophilia (male youth) and theoretically many others not otherwise specified (NOS).
In the real world each of the paraphilias typically has slang names (e.g., big baby, golden showers, S&M); an industry that sells related paraphernalia and props (e.g., restraining devices, dolls, adult-sized baby clothing); a support network (e.g., North American Man/Boy Love Association [NAMBLA], Diaper Pail Fraternity, Internet newsgroups and chatrooms); and a body of literature (e.g.,
pornography, newsletters). In fact the paraphilias are the organizational framework or the Dewey Decimal System of pornography, obscenity, adult bookstores, and Internet sex chatrooms.
Individuals can and frequently do have more than one of these paraphilias.Paraphilias are psychosexual disorders and not types of sex crimes. They may or may not involve criminal activity. Individuals suffering from one or more of these paraphilias can just engage in fantasy and masturbate, or they can act out their fantasies legally (e.g., consenting adult partners, objects), or they can act out their
fantasies illegally (e.g., nonconsenting partners, underage partners). It is their choice.In addition not everyone committing a sex offense has a paraphilia. Their behavior patterns may be criminal, but not fit the specific diagnostic criteria for a paraphilia.Sex offenders with paraphilias seem to have higher rates of misconduct and recidivism. Many rapists and incest offenders are not suffering from paraphilias.
I know these psychosexual disorders to be programs of ones abusers via hypnosis(dissociation) because the treament for psychosexual disorders of a psychological origin are in fact reprogramming via (everybody say it with me)....hypnosis. Here's a link explaining that as well. http://www.asiaone.com/Health/News/Story/A1Story20071113-36230.html
I recently created a post here in which I said that during abuse when you dissociate you are basically deeply hypnotized and in that deep hypnotic state whatever your abuser says to you can make you believe you felt pleasure or participated when in actuality you did not.I have come to discover that that is only half of the story.The other half of the story is when you come out of this dissociation(hypnotic state) whatever your abuser said to you is then sent to your subconscious along with the alter that was created at that time.It is well know that the subconscious drives the conscious mind thus if you have these suppressed alters that have been programmed to believe these falsities about abuse they can push these disturbing feelings into your conscious mind.Leading to understandable but unnecessary shame,guilt and self loathing.Also leading to Psychosexual disorders.Here's an exceprt about Psychosexual disorders to explain.
Paraphilias and Sexual Ritual
Paraphilias are psychosexual disorders defined for clinical and research purposes in the DSM-IV-TR. They are defined there as recurrent, intense, and sexually arousing fantasies, urges, or behaviors generally involving nonhuman objects, the suffering or
humiliation of oneself or ones partner, or children or other nonconsenting persons,and that occur over a period of at least six months. Better known and more common paraphilias include exhibitionism (exposure), fetishism (objects), frotteurism
(rubbing), pedophilia (child), sexual masochism (self pain), sexual sadism (partner pain), and voyeurism (looking). Less known and less common paraphilias include scatologia (talk), necrophilia (corpses), partialism (body parts), zoophilia (animals),coprophilia (feces), klismaphilia (enemas), urophilia (urine), infantilism (baby),
hebephilia (female youth), ephebophilia (male youth) and theoretically many others not otherwise specified (NOS).
In the real world each of the paraphilias typically has slang names (e.g., big baby, golden showers, S&M); an industry that sells related paraphernalia and props (e.g., restraining devices, dolls, adult-sized baby clothing); a support network (e.g., North American Man/Boy Love Association [NAMBLA], Diaper Pail Fraternity, Internet newsgroups and chatrooms); and a body of literature (e.g.,
pornography, newsletters). In fact the paraphilias are the organizational framework or the Dewey Decimal System of pornography, obscenity, adult bookstores, and Internet sex chatrooms.
Individuals can and frequently do have more than one of these paraphilias.Paraphilias are psychosexual disorders and not types of sex crimes. They may or may not involve criminal activity. Individuals suffering from one or more of these paraphilias can just engage in fantasy and masturbate, or they can act out their fantasies legally (e.g., consenting adult partners, objects), or they can act out their
fantasies illegally (e.g., nonconsenting partners, underage partners). It is their choice.In addition not everyone committing a sex offense has a paraphilia. Their behavior patterns may be criminal, but not fit the specific diagnostic criteria for a paraphilia.Sex offenders with paraphilias seem to have higher rates of misconduct and recidivism. Many rapists and incest offenders are not suffering from paraphilias.
I know these psychosexual disorders to be programs of ones abusers via hypnosis(dissociation) because the treament for psychosexual disorders of a psychological origin are in fact reprogramming via (everybody say it with me)....hypnosis. Here's a link explaining that as well. http://www.asiaone.com/Health/News/Story/A1Story20071113-36230.html
But there have been times i have been falling asleep and had visions? Flashbacks? Of bondage type situations thst were very graphic and my body responded in a way that made me sick. Not saying that people people who voluntarily engage are sick but my mind and body were incomplete disagreement.
TRIGGER
There are times that when I start to self hypnotize I will get somatic memories and some of them are of pleasure, I actually get the feeling of pleasure. I am certain is something along this line because a little girl cant just feel pleasure.
Anyway..
Pls, I have had the same exact thing happen to me numerous times and I have narrowed it down to the exact moment when my first abuser told me "if feels good doesn't it?".That's when in this dissociated hypnotic state it started to feel pleasureable to me.It was at that exact moment he said that and hypnotized that alter to believe it to be true.
In my case the abuser who programmed these suggestions were part of Satanic Ritual Abuse. In my case my abusers were Satanists who very deliberately gave me subliminal instructions as a child-alter in great distress.
But for most I think the programming of negative desires is more like how Pavlov's dog was trained. The dog got hungry, they fed him and rang a bell at the same time. They did this over and over again until the dog salivated at the sound of the bell and didn't even need the presence of food. I believe this is the more common way that we develop destructive sexual habits after abuse. The sex abuse causes normal body arousal but a destructive trigger like violence is involved. Eventually the violence itself causes sexual arousal with out normal body stimulation. This is true for me anyway. I have an introject alter who would happily see my body beaten and bleeding and he would be very sexually aroused by it. In fact he asks me if I would be willing to be tortured again just so he can get off.
Although knowing this information intellectually helps, it's difficult to let it sink into that part that allows me to forgive myself.