Multiple Personalities Support Group

Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...

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hopeless25 09/13/2013

I need some helpSadthings have just been spiraling out of control ... I'm back at school (college) taking a crazy course load and no one will let me focus :-/ my mind wonders and my little just fustrates me... My best friend hates me because we got into a argument that kiki started and I don't remember what happened.. But she hates me... This past week has just been hell... I found out I can't play rugby so I had go watch my team play, Takiah cut and have been drinking everyday... I'm losing so much time and just feel like I'm losing it.Sadhelp

tyzz27 09/13/2013

It awful when the internal world is in complete chaos. For myself I have recently gone through such a period when I started taking steps towards a positive future including employment, college, volunteer work. For me it was about discovering that the internals were threatened by a positive future. They were worried that I was not going to need them which any host/core personality will always back up the fact of their need for the others even though the others can be troublesome a lot of the time. We wish we could be there to support you all. To let kiki know that she is heard and doesn't need to be frustrating to be heard. To help Takiah channel her energy in healthier patterns and help her realize that there are others who understand her pain and to help with some grounding. Unfortunately we cant do any of this so be assured you are all in our thoughts and prayers.

deleted_user 09/13/2013

I am sorry you are having a rough time. I struggle with the focus and concentration when my mind and everyone in it wanders. It is so hard to get things done.

I hope you can have that conversation Tyzz talks about with your internal family to make it easier on you.

I hope she is done cutting, the idea of self harm (with booze I guess too) probably makes it worse.

Good luck

john12as 09/13/2013

i definitely know the out of control feeling...just the other day i posted about "not in control of switching", especially when triggered.
I know this will seem like little comfort but i have been able to limit my self harming behaviors to drinking and smoking...which is progress for me...but i have learned other, healthier self soothing techniques that I am working toward. One step at a time...."Progress Not Perfection"

I give you a lot credit for being in school...you are really amazing that is great!

stephanietram 09/14/2013

internals being threatened by a positive future is so true for us. We are hesitant to think we can actually do stuff because when it starts to go well, we seem to do stuff to sabotage it. I hope you are able to settle the inner conflict so that you can succeed at school. I hope you have a therapist, or someone who is really smart, that you can work through this with.

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