Multiple Personalities Support Group
Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...
I thought my T could help me she promised me that she could take away the pain. fFor a year she did great we did the emdr which I didn't really like because it brought back to many memories to many intrusive thoughts between sessions. Alters will come to speak. Things started going bad when her mother got sick. She stop talking to my insides, one time she forgot to call me to schedule a appointment. I finelly called her. I forgave her because she was very stressed. As the year progressed things got worse she called me boarderline which I hate there is a stegma with that, she rolled her eyes one day because I was having a hard time in the session. She asked did I want to leave I said ok. Under her breath she made a stament that made us feel like she thought we were lying. Today is a bad day. I keep thinking about my therapist. She has treated me sooo bad. I don't know why. I remember the day when she asked about me and my friend Karen going to a play, her comment " was karen going to dress you up" I was insulted. I asked do I need dressing up. She said sometimes. I was really insulted. What did she think I am someone who has never gone to the threater before. That is not the only thing, when I brought up to her that I still fear my father she said you are not over that yet. Or I told her that my supervisor triggers the inside me her respones was if you got your degree then you wouldn't have to deal with that. there is more. One day I was having a really bad day inside. I told her I was sad I couldn't really explain. I didn't express self injurious behaviors or homocide behaviors we were just so sad, her responds was may be you need to go to the hospital,Lisa K told her not we have to take care of the children. What kind of shit is that? We are so stupid for allowing her in our world. We saw the signs
I didn't trust the insides judgements. I need to leave therapy with her. but I want to do it without her blaming me that I am too sensitive or without me blaming her. Any suggestions?
I didn't trust the insides judgements. I need to leave therapy with her. but I want to do it without her blaming me that I am too sensitive or without me blaming her. Any suggestions?
I have come to a deadlock with several therapists in the past -- you can never get past whatever level of maturity and healing they have gotten to, so if you have reached that level, and it sounds like you may have, then you suddenly start having all these "problems" that weren't there before...and those remarks are uncalled for....signs you have reached her limit of ability with you.
Especially with a problem as complex and contraversial as this, don't feel bad if you find you need to keep seeking new therapists if you have given them an honest chance...I have had to ditch a few rather quickly, but I have also stayed with some way beyond what I should have, and wound up paying dearly.
many of the things you listed are unprofessional if not unethical. you should look elsewhere, and it doesn't matter what she thinks of you. i'm a t in training and from what i've been taught so far, she hasn't given you professional treatment...move on...
As far as EMDR goes, some people swear by it, others won't go near it. I refuse to have someone touching me (the tapping method) or to close my eyes with another in the room (the blinking light method), etc. I am just not into it, not going there, don't want to and no one can make me. We each have our own quirks and that HAS to be respected by our T or our T is of no use to us.
Now that I see this post is over a month old, I hope you have found someone else to work with and I would love for you to post an update on the board. I think we would all be interested in what is happening. Hang in there, sweetie