Multiple Personalities Support Group
Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...
It's true...there is no healing end point, there's no point at which I can be waxed, buffed, and rolled out the door, repaired.
I asked for a divorce, it's going to take a while to get as the legal situation's interesting. I have felt obligated to stay with my wife because she loves me, even though she often has treated me poorly.
It's the ones you love who hurt you the worst. It's always so.
Now that I made official what was already 90% true emotionally...I'm feeling that dreadful gnawing loneliness again.
I can't help but think I am too crazy and too damaged...and now too mistrustful...to ever end up with someone else.
How am I supposed to tell any normal person about the children in my head? The depression? the agoraphobia?
I'm forever a scratch and dent item...and getting old.
I fear people, I'm too weird, I'm too creepy...I need to learn how to be alone and be okay with that.
I asked for a divorce, it's going to take a while to get as the legal situation's interesting. I have felt obligated to stay with my wife because she loves me, even though she often has treated me poorly.
It's the ones you love who hurt you the worst. It's always so.
Now that I made official what was already 90% true emotionally...I'm feeling that dreadful gnawing loneliness again.
I can't help but think I am too crazy and too damaged...and now too mistrustful...to ever end up with someone else.
How am I supposed to tell any normal person about the children in my head? The depression? the agoraphobia?
I'm forever a scratch and dent item...and getting old.
I fear people, I'm too weird, I'm too creepy...I need to learn how to be alone and be okay with that.
take care
big hugs
I hope this helps a little.
as for starting a new relationship, u know how to do it! you just give them little pieces, put a little trust in them, start small, and see what they do with it. not just their reaction but how they treat you the next day or the next month.
I felt much the way you do, too...and at 48 years old, I found one of those myself.
Better late than never!!!!
It takes a WHOLE LOT of work and determination, but if you both stick with it and learn to pull each other out of the ditch you push each other into, it gets more and more rewarding as it goes.
Love and Hugs
Carla