FIRST OFF, im more then just "your alter" im your fucking protector for god sakes! Jesus! you are a dumbass. you really are! i mean it! your so fucking needy all the fucking time! GET OVER YOURSELF!! -Ella

THERES NOTHIN FUCKING WRONG WITH ME!!! FUCKING DUMBASS!!!!- Ella

BEE NIC TOO EECHOTHER!!!!!! NOW! -ruthi

SHUTUP RUTHI!-Ella

U MEEN!! -ruthi

Have you been giving her much body time? Are the alters who are destructive ruining the work Ella has put into trying to set up a normal routine? Perhaps it isn't anything you've done at all. We know Ella can become infuriated with any number of things. Maybe like many of us Ella worries that you might not need her anymore and she's stopped communicating with you so you fan go running back to her when things.don't work out. Maybe try asking one of the others and see if they know the answer. I'm more than happy to talk to her as well.

THERES NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT! LEAVE ME ALONE!- Ella

You could give her some space for a little while. Mabee make a time of day when it is safe for her to come out and at that time leave a journal out incase she wants to vent about anything.

in my experience , underneath the anger there is a whole lot to talk about..my heart goes out to Ella in a big way

one truth i have had to humbly accept is that the absence of dialogue is usually not a healthy thing, in terms of healing...i agree with tzzz and mamoth

we are here for you and appreciate your sharing the internal challenges many of us face
(hugs)

Ella I know your being your usual pissed off self however for the time I have known you, you have never let anyone into your world. You do an incredible job as the protector of TBR but sometimes even protectors need a break. When was the last time that you got to do the things you enjoy doing. NOONE can ever take your position simply because noone is as good as you at doing it. You can say whatever you like about my response I really don't care but you need to let up on B as she is doing the best job she can which in part is due to the help you have all given her as well as her willingness to try and do what is best for all of you.

Ella, I also have a protector. Her name is Charlize. She often feels the same way you do. I realized I wasn't giving her enough time out, and wasn't allowing her to do the things she really enjoys doing. Once I began to give her more time out, and allow her to enjoy her hobbies she was much happier. Do you need more body time? Do you need to spend time doing activities you enjoy? I feel you really should tell her what it is you need and why you are so angry. I hope everything gets better soon.