My head hurts

I've been really sick lately

It's hard to deal with life

I'll take my meds

Feel alone

Miss Nancy

Can't stand it. My head hurts

I need to hurt myself. Why

I can't stand it
I can't stand it
I can't stand it

Take my insulin

I want to eat. Already ate too much

Want to trash everything in the house

What do I do now

I don't want to go to bed FEAR

Want to lay on floor and curl into a ball

I do not want to be here

Where can I go

I can't drive I hate it.

It sound like you are really having a hard time. I am sorry. I can relate, I have been having a lot of thoughts of suicide lately. You said you have fear, do you know what you have fear of?

Hun, you are safe now.
You are safe.

Don't hurt yourself, you have been hurt enough, ok?

Is there somebody you can call to be with you?

Thank you. I seen to always feel better in the morning. This morning I am tired and ache all over. Although, this morning only a little better. I am going out to my in person support group. That should help.

I guess everybody was putting their two cents in last night. The voices are quieter this morning.

thanks for letting us know what's going on loum...glad your doing a little better !

yeah i get that, i am on the deep end as well..it's been hard...i have those ideations and think about it every day, working with people holding guns around their legs and waist doesn't help at all..

The support group meeting helped.

Good. I'm glad it helped. And I know what you mean about feeling better in the morning. That's how I am too. :p

I hate to be a whiney child, but all I can think of is killing myself. I'm so alone. My wife and I were together all our lives since we were teenagers and I love her so much. I can't just go anywhere because I can't drive. I hate having two amputations and not being able to walk. I'm so sick of taking over thirty meds a day, I'm so sick of doctor appointments and I'll never get any better.

I don't want to kill myself, but I can't stand it anymore. I just can't stand it anymore. If I go into the hospital, my family will use all my money and not pay any of my bills.

I'm sorry about being so whiney.

its okay, I understand, this is so hard for u..I am so sorry u are feeling this way...what do u do when u have such kind of feelings? do u talk or write, or listen to music, draw? call a friend? go online and check out your past journals of hope and clarity? any kind of outlets?

I have felt many of the same things you describe, I don't see it as whiney, just sharing your feelings... Your experience.
I hope dumping it out here has taken some of the power out of those otherwise overwhelming emotions.
Thanks for being here loum.

I got bad news from the doctor today. I need blood a transfusion possibly.tomorrow and dialysis very soon. My kidneys have gotten much worse and my anemia has gotten much worse.

:(

I'm so sorry...

A thought I had though...since you are disabled, and since your family seems to help themselves to your money rather than manage it for you, would it be possible to get someone trustworthy to manage your affairs for you instead?

Your medical status is not so good. You need someone trustworthy in charge of your finances when you cannot be.
I'm also wondering if you ad eligible for assistance in getting a home- health aide, or if your insurance would cover that? I think just having someone in to tidy and chit-chat would be an improvement.
Oh...how about in- home dialysis? Available where you live?

I'm just tossing out thoughts. This doesn't mean I think you're not smart ( you are smart ). I just would like to do what little I can to make things better because I like you and hate to see you so down and stuck.