Dear Shlay, First of all Im sorry to hear about the day you had. It sounds like one shitty day that you didnt need and a person should not be attempting to diagnose you with something unless they have the qualifications to do so. Otherwise like you experienced ones mind can be screwed with.

You are not alone in your feelings of being tired of not knowing what is wrong and not knowing how to fix it. For many years I struggled with not knowing what was wrong until a friends suggested she saw me switching with which I flat out denied. It wasnt until a therapist had me do some opposite handed homework that my alter personalities made themselves known and I was able to move forward. Whether this is the case for you remains to be seen but it is an awfully confusing, frustrating and down right anger provoking time whilst you find a diagnosis that can eventually be started to be worked on. Nothing is wrong with you your just not getting the right help you need and like I said this is frustrating.

Keep pushing your dr for a diagnosis so that then you can start reading up on your diagnosis and what you can do to help yourself. If youre not happy with your psych find someone else. I know this isnt easy as Im currently in the process of switching psychiatrists but I hope in the end it will be worth it.

As hard as it is just be patient.

hey shlay, your landlady sounds like she's trying to help and be supportive but might be projecting her stuff on to you. but even if she's right, being multiple doesn't mean you're crazy, it's a rough thing to deal with but it's not psychosis.

you may be mis-diagnosed, it happens a lot - i work in mental health - there's a lot of over-lap of symptoms. among the hardest, from what i see and patients tell me to deal with is anxiety - people feel like they're going to fly apart or want to crawl out of their skin and can't seem to stay still.

you sound like you're having one hell of a time with it right now. i hope you have coping skills that help, if venting is one you can let go here. people care and will listen.


it makes sense that you're angry and upset, dealing with a mental illness is no walk in the park and not knowing what's wrong and not finding something that helps much only makes it worse. you can always find support here though.

i hope you're feeling better, take care.

I'm certainly not suggesting you do or don't have DID but I was misdiagnosed as bi-polar for over a decade and have chronic anxiety. When I finally discovered I was a multiple a sense of peace came over me....it was like a million misunderstandings of a lifetime and all this unusual stuff that had occurred finally all made sense in a matter of minutes. I felt like the truth was encompassing my mind filling in every piece of the puzzle. DID in and of itself is not nearly as serious as people think...it is our inability to handle the emotions that each alter carries that causes the distress and disruptions in life. Don't be hard on yourself whatever you do.....I always remind myself "How could I have developed appropriate emotions....there was nobody there to teach me", This site is a great place to get support and share different ideas or techniques that may benefit another.

Shlay, she might be right, and she might be wrong....but for sure, merely getting distracted by another thought, does not mean you "switched"...(necessarily)...funny, it seems, a natural course of learning, that when someone learns they have a particular disease or disorder, they learn about it, and sometimes think they can spot it a mile away (when really, they're spotting a symptom, that, like in your case, could very well be from something else, too) Unfortunately, many people are like that, have a narrow point of view, so when their brain capacity for information gets full, they think that's all there is to know. And when that happens, a lot of damage can happen, just as you're talking about. I am afraid, I am guilty of having done that myself. People just don't know better, because they just don't know....there's a lot more to it than that.
Either way, if you don't have a therapist right now, it might be a good time to find one. Especially if what your landlord said, has pushed a nerve button for you. That tells you there is something, whatever it is, that "triggered" you...and caused you distress.