Multiple Personalities Support Group
Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...
How am I ever supposed to live through all this? I have DID because of a lot of physical/emotional/sexual abuse that occurred throughout my childhood. Lately I've been going through what my counselor calls flooding. Where I just remember memory after horrible memory. Sometimes I see what happened. Sometimes I hear it. Sometimes I feel it in my body. These are things that "I" didn't know about before, but I know one of my alters did. I don't know who.
I actually haven't heard from any of them since about July. Which is strange. Before then, I could hear a lot of them, talk to them, see some of what was going on when some of them were in charge of my body. But now, nothing. It's like I've gone back to when I didn't know what was happening, and didn't know these other parts of me existed. I'm just losing a lot of time. All the time. Always confused. Feel like I live in a fog.
But back to my question. How do I live with this. And why is it happening to me? Why am I being flooded with these memories and feelings? It's so completely overwhelming. And I don't know how to deal with it.
And Christmas is in 4 days. Which means I have to go and stay in the house where this all happened. Which will make it even worse.
How am I supposed to live through this?
I actually haven't heard from any of them since about July. Which is strange. Before then, I could hear a lot of them, talk to them, see some of what was going on when some of them were in charge of my body. But now, nothing. It's like I've gone back to when I didn't know what was happening, and didn't know these other parts of me existed. I'm just losing a lot of time. All the time. Always confused. Feel like I live in a fog.
But back to my question. How do I live with this. And why is it happening to me? Why am I being flooded with these memories and feelings? It's so completely overwhelming. And I don't know how to deal with it.
And Christmas is in 4 days. Which means I have to go and stay in the house where this all happened. Which will make it even worse.
How am I supposed to live through this?
I do hope that you TRY the advice that I offered. IF the dissociation works best for you to help you get through...then perhaps allow it to. But only if you have to. We can't stop it from coming on sometimes...so, I think that we should just accept that it happens. Don't try to figure it out right now...wait until you're able to reflect or something to try and figure things out. Cause if your alters have talked to you before about these issues or things they've gone through...there's a likely chance that they'll do it again. Just give them time to cope and a chance to explain.
maybe ask t for a break til u feel better?