At your age I didn't make it through college either. In fact even as I grew into my 30s I continued to fail at school. In my case I got all As for a while then poof PTSD kick in all over again and I never did graduate. Nine years of college (I'm seriously over-educated.) and yet no degree. I have another DS friend here in the same boat. The stress of college is causing despair on a regular basis. I'll tell you what I told her. You have a right to be wounded. You have to juggle constant pain from you memory/wounds and current ongoing threats to your safety now too. And then you should do fine is school? No, you get to be human. You should be safe. You should not have to suffer further with too much stress that school causes. You are very bright. You need a break. IMO the lessons you should learn right now are how to find balance and be safe. How to find validation and security. These are what you should learn, not who was President during the depression, or to always write a complete sentence in your essays. You are young. There will be a time (soon) when school will be the best thing for you. But I think you need to respect the pain and over-stresses it causes right now and give yourself a break. Honor peace and your need for it. You will have a diploma in your youth, I'm sure of this. Just learn the important lessons first.

Also, of course this is only my opinion. I will support you if you choose to stay in school. I will support you - period.

Thank you because i was actually thinking about taking the next semester off because i need to get a handle on things like i took the summer to try and do it but things are going right back down the drain.. It so hard to escape the things you can't see and the things you can't run from ... I can't escape myself and i don't know where i belong.. All i kno is that i can't go back to that hell home and school is my only escape from that.. I know if i was to take the semester off then my mother would be livid...Ugh if only life was simple.. I was want to be happy, safe and feel loved but thats asking to much

I completely understand how that feels. I've been getting better though, since taking a semester off. It's still painstakingly difficult, but it's a lot better for me now.

What I did was take a semester off and focus on therapy/life changes. I moved out of my parents' house, and started back in school. I still have problems with not being able to stay present enough to study, but it's better because the rest of my life is (slightly) more stable.

The right medicine could help you with your disorder.Can you see a therapist on your campus?

That's what I fear is I need to take w semester off but my parents won't understand...
I'm on prozac and two other medications