Hey I was diagnosed with DID over a year ago. Have met a lot of my people (personalities).
I have also been learning about what happened in my childhood & I am sure there is a lot more to learn. I have always had gaps no memory like missing puzzle pieces of my childhood & wanting to have the whole puzzle put together.
Either through my people journaling in their journals or coming out in therapy & talking to my therapist. Little girl age 5yrs. has shared about the S abuse that happened at the hands of our bio D (our father) it’s to hard to call him our father so we call him bio D. Suzie age. 12yrs has shared he S abuse that happened to her & today in therapy I learned through my therapist that someone new had come out no name yet but she is 8 or 9yrs. & she shared some detailed S abuse that was disturbing.
Sorry for the long post but I guess just wondering if anyone can relate in that I feel so... disconnected like all this stuff happened to them not to me. But they are me... and I don’t know what to do with this info.
I feel like maybe I need to connect that this happened to me & have feelings about it? So I can work through it and heal?I guess it’s also hard to believe that this all really happened... I don’t know it’s all really overwhelming and confusing to have no memory of all this. But I know that’s exactly why I have DID is because it was to painful to live through so I split. Anyone have any thoughts?
Is it wrong for me to want friends that I dont have to hide from? I sick of hiding my true self. I'm sick of acting like Kaylee around everyone . I'm sick of being a secret. Is it wrong for me to want that?
Sup guys I’m Brenda I’m 15. I’m out to give S a break. She had a really hard T Appt. We was raped in January & hav had horrific flashbacks. S did ALOT of flashback work this evenin. She never talked out loud bout it till now. T said that talkin about it what happened would lessen its power it would get the flashes out of our head & give the memories to her so we can let it all go. So S did...