Theblackrose do you have ritual abuse in your past? This is truly not a path that a recovering abuse survivor would want to take. I myself would implore you to stay as far away as possible from Satanism as you can. This "religion" is wrought with abuse and in no way would be helpful to a person wanting to recover from an abusive past.

echoing what Wheezie said, and I am sure you already know (so does Ella). If you can get through the haze, this may be a time to get help before someone gets hurt again.
Monica

Ella is your protector. How can she protect you if she is engaged in ritualists abusive behavior?

I have felt a part take over me like that before. I would try to tell her to stop that, it's really harmful.

Ella has a damned hard job to do, protect everyone.

I'm wondering what her motivation is for doing this, and what she thinks the benefit to you-all would be?
I'm really puzzled.
I do remember you mentioning you had an alt that is a voodoo priestess.
Just a thought...since you've been dragged to a church by your "Christian" family...maybe this is done in a sort of rebellion and staking of identity?
After all, your family is vicious...but I bet they walk in there every Sunday heads held high, don't they?
Like sugar wouldn't melt in their mouths...*barf*

Satanism and Voudoun are only related in that the first is basically a negation of Christianity, while the other is African with a thin veneer of Catholicism.
I do not suggest Satanism for anyone...from the few Satanists I have met it draws really, REALLY malignant people to it.
Voudoun really ought to be practiced starting under the mentorship of someone who is kindhearted and of good will, as otherwise you're not going to learn correctly.
FWIW, I once went to a lefty political rally and noticed the energy of one of the men speaking...he had dreadlocks, was wearing all white...He was a lawyer as well.
He emanated a happiness and peace I still find striking.
It was only years later that I found out that Voudon priests often wear all white...hmm...

I think that one thing that attracts people, including alts, to things like this is the very fringe nature of the subjects. Another thing is the power they appear to offer in the form of making other people nervous.

If we can make other people nervous, or a little afraid of us, they are less likely to try to hurt us, right? And that's where the protector role comes in.

However, they can also make our other alts nervous, and cause additional problems within the inner family, which is the opposite of protecting them. One should also consider why the friend of yours (the "student") would want to learn such things... Possibly because she is an abuse victim also? "Teaching" her can only lead to one of two end results: Either the power inherent in being called a teacher may lead to you bullying or abusing her in some way, or she may try also to use this new role of hers to keep people at bay instead of working on healing.

Neither path promotes healing, but rather delays it. And trust me... I suffered with the effects of abuse until my mid-thirties, and if you can get started healing before that, I really hope you'll be well before that age. You deserve the opportunity to enjoy your twenties and thirties, instead of living with fear and flashbacks. Only you can decide how to make that happen. Ella, as a protector, will abide by whatever you choose.

~ Wistala

Jesus! Calm the fuck down. I'm apologize about the SR shit, but what happened is in the past. Your still alive aren't you? I have my reasons, and for hell's sake I'm part demon. I know that what happened with them was dangerous, and I know they did terrible shit but I can't stop them this time if they turn on us. I have a student. He wants to learn it for his own selfish reasons, so what? - Ella

You should be more carful with the shit you pull Ella. You don't know what your asking for this time, salt and holy water won't always be their to save you. Think this through.- Maxwell

STFU! -Ella

Simply saying. For our own good. -Maxwell

You know the day of my father in laws funeral my husband and I searched his house and found a jar with salt in it with about 20 pieces of paper with a womans name written on them.Does this sound familiar Theblackrose?

@ Ella...occult stuff can have interesting results. Like the Chinese curse "May you live in interesting times," interesting.

@ Wheezie...That does not sound like a love charm.
If it was a love charm, you would have likely found some sort of herbal mix, or a curse-you would have tossed the jar because upon opening it, what was in there would have stunk.
Salt is used for purification-for instance, tracing a line of salt across all the entrances to your home.
If I were to put something symbolic of someone in a pot of salt, it would be with the idea of purifying my life of this malignant person.
Okay (puts up pointy hat) off-topic-ness over....

...but different systems of practice may have uses I am not aware of....

Ahh ok thank you Hylie. My husband and I both know the woman who's name was written on those pieces of paper.It makes perfect since that my father in law(evil he may have been) would want this woman who was even more evil than him out of his life.

I agree with Hylie, sounds like an attempt at purification... A type of hex perhaps.