I have a messed up relationship with food. Sometimes I go all day without eating. Sometimes I overeat. I usually overeat at night. I never made the connection that you did but it makes perfect sense. My weight has gone up and down accordingly. It is really frustrating. I feel like withholding food is punishment.

I was just going to post something about eating too. I have the same exact problem. I do fine with breakfast and lunch but after dinner I'm on a constant binge. I know my fear of going to bed has a lot to do with it!

i dont eat breakfast or lunch but after 3pm im beng and then at night i throw up somtimes. Somtimes i'll go a month without eating. every few days my alter Ken forces herself to throw food up. i have a terrible relationship with eating and sleeping its like i have every kind of eating disorder. :/

Bulimia has been my battle. One alter is overly self critical and hard on themselves. I am constantly here lately roller-coastering with my weight. I try to eat healthy, but I won't keep food down and I'll not even know about it.

when i was being abused i couldn't taste my food and never wanted to eat in front of parents. i become comfortable with food when i was alone so now i only enjoy food alone.

*triggger* when i was a kid i choked in front of parents and they watched and did nothing while i struggled and finally stopped choking by saving myself. parents didn't care they just went on with dinner. for a year or so after that my body wouldnt eat solids.

other parts have other food issues.

This is so sad to hear all these issues (for good reasons) your guys have with food.

One of my abuses that just was remembered was the time that, when I really didn't like the food I was eating and was rather full, my parents forced me to eat more of it, and if I didn't finish my bowl in , then I was given an additional serving of it to eat.

Add onto that the fact that my parents are both extremely obese, and can barely find clothes to wear, the fact I'm borderline anorexic is hardly a surprise.

I also have days where I have no actual desire to eat, and won't even notice I haven't unless someone points it out to me.

My father also abused me with food. He was not overweight. I was overweight from a combination of things. I was in the hospital for 6 months when I was 4 with a bone disease and I couldn't walk for 2 years. Also there was so much abuse and no comfort from my parents that I used food for comfort. My father would buy a bag of donuts, eat one and leave the rest on the kitchen counter until they went mould. If I ate one he would ridicule me for having no will power. I am not very sensitive to body feelings, so I don't feel physically hungry very often, it's mostly emotional. Since I'm diabetic I have to force myself to eat most of the time.

Since I've been in therapy and working on my abuse issues the emotional eating has improved except before bed, but it is becoming harder to force myself to eat other meals. Since my last therapy session, even the emotional eating at night has improved. Now I have to worry about low blood sugar.

For as long as I remember I didn't eat breakfast then I didn't eat lunch, and I rarely ever snack. This really started from living with my dad. We were always made to eat everything we were dished, it didn't matter if there was too much or I didn't like it. You just had to eat what was there. And every meal, at night, started with chilli. Sometimes it was just sweet chilli but sometimes it was real chilli that he had in his garden. How much of that chilli we had to have depended on his mood each day. But there was never a day he was there I didnt have to have chilli. Most of the time I couldn't actually taste anything else they had there for tea, so it didn't matter so much if I liked it or not. But if there was too much, or I just couldn't finish it, my food was thrown out to the dog bowl and I had to eat from the bowl like a dog.

I have never written or told anybody about that, ever. It kind of frustrates me that I still don't eat during the day. And regardless of whether or not I'm hungry I just keep on eating at night.