OMG i know what you mean about the PHP - I was recently stuck in one and I'm scared to talk to anyone! I've completely shut down because of it.

I don't know that I'm much help because SRA is not what happened to me but I DO understand the PHP fears...Dear God what a nightmare!!

I'm sad to hear that you have to face such things, but I know you can get through them honey. What I'm about to say may not be what you hoped for, but If you don't tell other people, they can't help you and unfortunately we will be of little help as well. Though the Lord is awesome, he gave us a brain to have others intervene. I think utilizing God in such a way can be a way to hide too inadvertently, be cautious of that. Only trained people can deal with the likes of what your going through. How do I know? I went through it myself, I had 6 alters created from the cult and cult loyal thanks to my SRA. As twisted as this will sound, unfortunately, I had no help, no hospital that would help, I had myself and my inner IT and ISH.

Going through what you are is no laughing matter. Sometimes we can't control everything either. I hope that your able to stay safe. Keep in mind there is a difference between cult loyal and created alters doing bodily harm and "possessed" as you call it and those alters that are pissed off and acting out the abuse. Learn the differences quickly and it will avoid more chaos in the end, trust me. Does a 9 yr old child really have the mind of the devil? Really? She is hurting, endured horrific things and may have "learned" somewhere that this is the way to get that out. Talk to her.

We wish you the best and hope not to offend, just know as an SRA CSA survivor from the ages of 2-14 at the hands of my father, uncle , cousin and so on, and being on the other side of that and learning, we're imparting that to all of you. Safe journey to healing. We're glad you posted.

~K (ISH Saga (IT) of Destany's House

We internalize our abuse and abusers, right? well...

Chances are the directions Vicky's following are not the actual devil.
It's another, more reticent alter in your system.
So ask Victoria who it is telling her to harm the body, ask her to point out the person.

Then start working with the one who's issuing these directions, and find out what that's about.

I agree with ausier and hylier. While it is possible that the devil can work through children it is more likely that your 9 yr old is acting out as a result of the abuse or being told to act out from coercion from a reticant. It's important to realize that all our alters are created to portect us for some reason even these ones who are causing us harm. I also agree with ausie in the fact that while God is an awesome individual he also gave us awesome people with our lives who we can turn to for support and if that means you ending up in hospital so you can be kept safe well then so be it. Its better to be in hospital where you can all learn to work in harmony toggether than for one of you to harm you all to the point of no return. We are here to support you without a doubt but we are also here to guide you to seek the professional support you need at this moment.