This is Victoria.some of you know me and my issues and my anger. Has any of you felt like doing to you preditor what he/she has done to you but to somone innocent? I was the toy for both women and men and now I find myself desiring women and it really is pissing me off and everyone else off. Something switches in your brain after being a victom for so long I started to believe I enjoyed it. Now Bonnie is pissed off because I keep wanting to hurt myself or someone else in a sexual way. Will I ever be set free from this evil? I am the only one that drinks and lately we all have been drunk in the afternoon. I am ashamed of what I think about and what I desire or fantisize about. I am the only one of 10 alters that feels this way. Everybody else want a man but are curious about them and afraid of them. I'm sorry if this is too much information but I loosing hope...I want to cut so badly. I know I need more help I just think I'm too stubborn to surrender to a caring person. I am angry! And I'm sorry if this has trigered some of you. I just needed to get it out of me!
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