Multiple Personalities Support Group
Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...
One, I have met a new alter.
I am getting the hunch that this alter is modeled after an actual abuser...and that this happened when I was enormously overweight.
I did not blow up into morbid obesity until I was in 7th grade.
This guy...I dunno what he did yet? But I think he got off on humiliating me, since he wasn't allowed to hit me really hard?
Mom would freak if I got unexplainable bruises, I assume.
I thought the abuse was all done by the time I was 8. However, my dad hated that I was going to private school. I was costing him.
He hated me for not being male, BTW. It was my fault.
Anyway, I get the feeling sometimes my dad took me somewhere besides school?
That doesn't make sense though.
Really does not.
He had to go to work!
...I dunno.
Right now the alter is locked in my Swedish Jail cell ( kind of plush for a cell.)
...the more crap come out of my head, the harder time I have believing it. How the heck did he get away with renting me out???
I am getting the hunch that this alter is modeled after an actual abuser...and that this happened when I was enormously overweight.
I did not blow up into morbid obesity until I was in 7th grade.
This guy...I dunno what he did yet? But I think he got off on humiliating me, since he wasn't allowed to hit me really hard?
Mom would freak if I got unexplainable bruises, I assume.
I thought the abuse was all done by the time I was 8. However, my dad hated that I was going to private school. I was costing him.
He hated me for not being male, BTW. It was my fault.
Anyway, I get the feeling sometimes my dad took me somewhere besides school?
That doesn't make sense though.
Really does not.
He had to go to work!
...I dunno.
Right now the alter is locked in my Swedish Jail cell ( kind of plush for a cell.)
...the more crap come out of my head, the harder time I have believing it. How the heck did he get away with renting me out???
i know many in this group appreciate your beautiful spirit, support, insights, courage to share your experience and journey of recovery.
how do we let our let our alters know that we are not responsible for what happened in the past?
how do we channel the justified and normal anger somewhere else besides hurting ourselves or others?
too often for us, Anger is the elephant in the room no one talks about , no one knows what to do with it.
i hope we can support you in a way that feels empathetic
* looks embarrassed*
Thanks, guys, that was a very kind reply.