Motherless Children Support Group
This community focuses on children (of any age) who no longer have a mother in their lives, whether as a result of death or extended separation. A mother plays a crucial role in both early childhood development as well as support throughout one's life. How is your life affected by the lack of this integral relationship?
Two weeks ago I was diagnosed with my second bout of pulmonary embolisms. The doctor keeps saying I could have died. He also told me that I'm pre-diabetic. I'll be on blood thinners for the rest of my life. I feel overwhelmed by new health challenges and I feel physically horrible and emotionally drained.
And all I want to do is talk to my mom about it. I know she couldn't cure any of it or make it go away but I just want to talk to her. I want some comfort. I want her to call me "Nicola Bola" and sing Barbra Streisand songs with me so I can forget how I afraid I am feel for a few minutes.
I always said I didn't want to get sick and die young like my parents did (they died 5 years ago, 7 weeks apart). But I feel like my body is an epic fail and now I'm going to be like her. I don't want to die.
The other night I dreamed that I missed her so much that I cried myself sick. I was inconsolable. I just wanted to hear her voice and hear her say my name. I woke up so sad and I've been sad ever since.
I don't know how to manage all of this health stuff and I just wish I could talk to her.
OK. I'm rambling. Sorry.
And all I want to do is talk to my mom about it. I know she couldn't cure any of it or make it go away but I just want to talk to her. I want some comfort. I want her to call me "Nicola Bola" and sing Barbra Streisand songs with me so I can forget how I afraid I am feel for a few minutes.
I always said I didn't want to get sick and die young like my parents did (they died 5 years ago, 7 weeks apart). But I feel like my body is an epic fail and now I'm going to be like her. I don't want to die.
The other night I dreamed that I missed her so much that I cried myself sick. I was inconsolable. I just wanted to hear her voice and hear her say my name. I woke up so sad and I've been sad ever since.
I don't know how to manage all of this health stuff and I just wish I could talk to her.
OK. I'm rambling. Sorry.
Try to be kind to yourself, and feel free to VENT!
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My Mom died eight years ago this month, and I too am pre-diabetic, and have undergone treatment for serious illnesses since her death.
My doctors also tell me that I am lucky to be alive.
Lucky? I feel like I have had too many near misses and I wonder if
I will ever be the same physically. I feel some days like my nose is the only thing sticking up above the water line. YIKES!
I am also single, my brothers have their own lives, and their wives only view their families as family. Being single, that means I am out
in the cold. I am also in a new city, with friends out of town, so everything falls on me......there is no support.
I am having one of those overwhelming days, when I cannot even look at the bills, or check the checking account, or do the million other things I need to do to take care of myself personally.
So without your VENTING..........I would think I was alone out there.
It somehow made it easier today, knowing we could be here to help each other get through.
I have to start work on a job, for the first time in a year, and I am scared witless.........although I am not sure why. It is not the work, I think it just reminds me of how my finances have been strangled by
my illnesses.
So keep writing and venting, girlfriend, and we will get through it
together with everyone else.
It does not seem so bad when you have great people to turn to on-line. I am new to this support group and have found everyone to be
so very supportive.
Let us know how you are doing, OK?
They may not have been able to help with us with our grown up stuff, but we miss the emotional support that they gave us. Or just the warmth of feeling "home" in their presence.
Someone once said, and I try and remember it, that once someone passes........our relationship with them changes from a physical one to a spiritual one. Meaning, if you believe in life after death, we can still talk to them.....ask for their help.....expect them to be listening and helping. Its has calmed me when I am at the panic stage.
Take care and remember to be kind to yourself.
"Being single, that means I am out in the cold. I am also in a new city, with friends out of town, so everything falls on me......there is no support.
I am having one of those overwhelming days, when I cannot even look at the bills, or check the checking account, or do the million other things I need to do to take care of myself personally."
I could have written that myself! ALL of my friends are out of town as well and I feel that I have no support. And I too get sooooo overwhelmed by everyday stuff. MAN!
It's so hard sometimes.